ah, its okay! its been a hard year so im sorry for acting all miserable and gross this week.

BASICALLY, I just always liked the idea of hyunwoo being the straightman who gets disconcerted with luka first, and notices that his actions and behavior towards hyuna is just a little off compared to with other people (i actually wanted to write a fic like this too, i wanted to see the slow creeping dread of hyunwoo realizing that luka clinginess towards his sister is too overwhelming to be normal) while hyuna remained oblivious to his intentions and just thought it was cute, and that being a cause for her seemingly needing to balance him and luka in all in along with their fighting, but luka was even more overwhelming and blatantly gross than expected. I still count it a win. I’m glad they match each other’s freak. I saw a lot of people say that hyunwoo was oblivious/naive and while he scolded luka he never really got frustrated with him being around hyuna (due to patreon info), so I’m glad we got to see that he Did. I thought so with the division of hyuna between hyunwoo and luka in all in, and then in the first comic where hyunwoo only called for his sister and not luka, so I’m glad to know that despite their initial interactions, I was right that hyunwoo got increasingly annoyed and upset with luka the more that time went on.

The second was just that there was even more proof that hyuna noticed that Luka’s behavior was odd, but ignored it because it was cute. While I thought hyuna was oblivious to his intent, I don’t think that it passed her by completely that he was overwhelming and clingy to her in a way that wasn’t normal—still she was charmed by it, and allowed him to do what he wanted which seemingly served as encouragement (hyunwoo said that luka sucked on her face before as well) for him to keep encroaching on her space

Luka being disgusting with intimacy, he doesn’t know how to touch someone he likes, and all of his displays of affection are overwhelming and clumsy, and he acts this way being he knows hyuna will let him do what he wants until he gets tired of it.

And in the newest image, “I told you what I wanted already” well, that just made me happy because I wrote that in a fic, even though it was an au and the context for the illustration is different than what I thought

oh! sorry, I didn’t see this question before!!!

My thoughts on hyunwoo’s death change from day to day depending on what I find most interesting, but I Usually don’t think the death itself was premeditated despite luka probably wishing for hyunwoo to die or for hyuna to abandon him in favor of Luka’s presence—but regardless of premeditation, there was no remorse in the aftermath, and luka had caused it, that is something I’m sure of. I don’t think luka had any feelings other than resentment towards hyunwoo for taking away the attention of his “goal”. i think that luka wanted hyuna’s attention, and had provoked hyunwoo the way he provoked mizi in order for hyuna to defend him and choose him over everyone else as a revalidation of his worth to her.

Personally, the hyuna accidentally pushed hyunwoo when breaking them up theory was the first one I saw when all in came out, there was a comment when the video came out that made a lot of sense to me and helped me organize my thoughts about it; but if it was luka who pushed him then i could see that too! the luka one is the most popular and i definitely can see why and it makes sense to me as well, but again, it doesn’t change that luka was the cause of everything, and it won’t change the feelings on hyuna’s guilt and disgust even if her blame is misguided and thrusted upon the nearest scapegoat so she doesn’t have to confront her feelings the same way she thrusts herself into singing so she doesn’t think about luka. from all in, it seems she blames herself for having a relationship with him at all, so in her perspective, it will still be both of their faults—Luka’s more than hers.

what happened during the scuffle doesn’t really interest me as much as the aftermath or what happened before, so I’ll go with whatever regardless of the cause of death. If hyuna has to slowly piece together that the person who is in love with her doesn’t seem sad about the accident at all, then that’s fine! if hyuna came late or hyunwoo tripped on his own and she doesn’t GET to have any clear-cut feelings of what happened and is left with discomfort with no one to blame but herself and the only other party involved, that’s fine! if hyuna is bombarded with the realization that her brother was murdered by someone who had kissed her right after she rejected him, then that’s fine too!

hyuna is having a bad time either way! i love that for her!! i will be having a great time seeing her miserable and conflicted no matter what!

oh! i feel like this may be phrased ominously. while i like mizisuamizi and mizitill, i don’t really think about luka with anyone else but hyuna, actually! since im fussy, usually when i have a favorite ship, its common for me to not even consider any other options for one member (in this case its luka) since those usually end up as severe landmines if im not careful, and ill start to feel uncomfortable and a bit ill when I see it.

it’s difficult for me to see luka having any genuine interest in person that is not hyuna because of how i view them and his character, but if you want to try and sell me on other pairings that involve him, im not unwilling to see your reasoning if you want to change my mind! i think that any concept can be interesting to delve into if the writing is good enough.

my ao3 is between me and god.

but in all honesty, I write on ao3 using the anonymous feature because i am used to it (a i respected writer credited my ao3 for art i drew them when i was in highschool, and i got really flustered and anoned everything since i didnt expect to be credited, so it’s a habit now), so unless it’s something like GI which i write for constantly and consistently, there’s nothing to see unless you want me to link it to you directly—even for zines, my profolios are in drives—so in particular, if there’s something you’re curious about, you can let me know and i will send it directly to you, but these are the works i am most known for. If you can recognize my writing in fandoms like OP, SP, or OS then… really sorry for the poor writing quality lol. i have alst fics, but right now im a bit embarrassed since i wrote them while feeling sick, so i think those are not good (you can find them easily though, since the lukahyuna tag is so tiny lol)

Genshin: https://archiveofourown.org/series/2596258
YTTD: https://archiveofourown.org/works/23033359
JGKRK: https://archiveofourown.org/works/43699473
JFBC: https://archiveofourown.org/works/45163171