Anonymous 🍊 · 3d
atp i wonder why dehumanizing their artists isn't enough a reason for them to start questioning is their money spent worth that much suffering for their idols. because i question if their love stems from the music or the gratification they feel over spending money on something they 'love' most often than not as a distraction and or their 'i deserve this after the shits ive gone through in this period of time' mentality. maybe im being harsh (i don't give a fuck actually) coming from someone who has bought zero merch/tix literally anything after the years ive spent with them, but is it really THAT hard to part ways with the things you used to find 'fulfilling' spending on at your idol's expense? is it that hard to come to the conclusion that WE as the consumers of this "entertainment" has the bigger leverage if we actually use that power and organize so what we truly want these days, can come sooner? it's fucking my mind a lot how moa rpf especially since im inside one, have the minds to write beautiful things and im pretty sure could grasp enough what a boycott could do even though they're not much involved politically, still refuse to do so, because that's unreasonably the only 'source of happiness' they have. by spending money. it's really so fucking ridiculous.
and you're right. i dread coming on to twt now to see more of them mourning and "just cancel everything"s coming from people i know hasn't boycotted shit nor said anything about it ever. the fandom really is the one who drive away the fans, and as much as i want to disassociate the fandom and the artist, it's fucked up how the two are associated to live side by side and i fall victim to it.
it really will take them spelling it out for them that they've been suffering these past years for them to take action. it saddens me that i could really feel myself slipping out of this godforsaken fandom even though ive loved the earlier time i was inside it. it's reassuring to keep seeing pro boycotters, but it's overwhelming that the ones that don't are still majority and the ones with the bigger platforms are the one who doesn't encouraging people to take action collectively. it's sad to imagine parting ways with what ive loved for so long, but i do see myself getting out of it if this keeps happening.
i also worry about sbn's health condition not entirely being physical... i actually hope it'll take him even longer to recover if it is so. more than a month isn't that much of time to recover from something like a burnout or anxiety, and with how much schedule he's gonna miss out, it really do feel severe. im at least glad he wanted to take that rest.
im sorry to say this, and maybe it isn't healthy to do so, but boycotting moa rpf are the only people holding me back from getting out of this fandom entirely after yesterday. so if i see people leaving by the day, that really will motivate me to get out. so i hope we can hold on until something is finally done? because i also dread the time im demotivated about loving them again, because fandom is an intrinsic factor for me after i joined in, that i miss the time when i was less involved in one while still loving the 5 as is haha
i had to get my laptop to answer this ask. i do think some ppl are starting to question and rethink abt their expenditures on companies that exploit their artists especially with the hybe situation.. but for the most part some ppl remain blind to it or it'll be like sympathy with the situation till another opportunity arises for them to "spoil" themselves and give all their money to these companies without a regard that they could be potentially harming the artists they claim to love in the process, a lot of ppl lack critical thinking u see.. and the idol industry's pillars is consumerism and the parasocial relationship between the idols and their fans,, which explains why some buy albums in pile just for a chance to talk to their idol but that's another topic. and I'm in the same boat as someone who has spent 0 money on any kpop merch, the content I consume is enough for me, as for how some rps ppl refuse to boycott well,, I think its out of selfish reasons that or they genuinely fail to grasp that they have "leverage over the situation" like u said. I've seen a lot of ppl saying “don't blame the fans, but blame the company” and while the company is the main culprit yes, they're also meeting fans' demands when they make this amount of comebacks and encore stages.. and it makes me think that ppl don't really need to see their idols at different stops even if they can afford it like just once is enough. not to say that I'm sure the members are proud of their accomplishments with filling out stadiums and stuff but the management has been horrible for the concerts that it resulted in their health declining, and putting into perspective how they said they just want to be “healthy and happy” I don't think their priority is burning themselves on the expense of their health to please their fans or for the company to get richer.
omg yeah, twt has always been enlaced with both negative and positive I think this goes for any fandom but this is genuinely my first time experiencing horrid feelings while being in a fandom bc I didn't use to interact closely with it before and most of my fandom experiences were Anime and that was well, /entirely/ different from kpop. tbh at times like these I try to get away from twt and just talk to my inner circle, I love tubatu sm and I love the rpf side and the friends I've made and I think it'll be hard to give this all up even with the dread I've been feeling abt interacting with fandom closely and seeing their stance and horrible takes... it reminds me that this what drives ppl away from such spaces and as a reclusive person I think it might be close to happening for me but I'm trying to cling harder with the help of whatever flimsy hope I still have yk.. but yes I wish fans would organise and work together into changing the situation for their idols and I'm afraid just trending hashtags and sharing stuff on twt won't matter unless we all move collectively,,, and we'll need big accs to join in and its not a delusional Dream bc it has happened with other fandoms before but idk moas need a wake-up call and so far the majority still seem to be in a trance
oh for sure, I don't think his condition is physical bc he said "he wants to take time to reform himself so he can be with us for a long time and that he's been considering this decision for a while" tbh I was feeling so depressed over this yesterday, I have more clarity to be hopeful abt it today. I'm glad he has the option to take a needed break even if its a bit later than he actually needed and I’m sure the decision was hard for him to take. tbh the end of the year schedules is mainly just award shows so I hope he doesn't stress sm over missing out on stuff and focuses on his recovery. itd be nice if he were able to take a trip with one of the members and get away from the redundant feelings so he can start the year fresh,, and as someone who suffered from burnout and anxiety and depression etc; that one month might not feel “enough” but I trust that it'll be a great change for his mental health and its better than nothing right?
oh I do feel the same ahaha I genuinely would have left along ago if it weren't for like-minded ppl,, but ill try to hang on so u don't leave anonie. i have so much love for the boys and the good things abt fandom even if this love tangles me to a place that often makes me hurt I hope we can find a balance so We don't burn out this time.
