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Nameless Grub · 4d
I discovered your work during a Wikipedia deep dive about 6 months ago and immediately fell in love…it feels like it came to me at the exact perfect time. Everything you make is so beautifully disgusting…
I read serious weakness a few weeks after dropping out of university due to adhd and it immediately became one of my favourite books. Very cathartic read…Trianon’s line “I’ll always have to work harder than everyone else. I’m so tired of it. I just want someone else to take care of me.” was the first time I’ve ever seen that feeling depicted anywhere. Also loved the ending. Many other writers probably would have had Trianon kill Insul and run away with Oenone but what you went with was so much more interesting and thematically satisfying…returning to his old life would kill trianon just as much as the aquarium killed that shark (tho maybe a different kind of death)
Anyways thanks for infecting me with your art…I’m excited to keep absorbing it for many more years
here's to dropping out.
when the “right" path takes so much energy…one has to find the natural currents in the actual body one is living in, not the ideal one.
i needed to see a book with that ending
because every time i saw the usual kind, i knew it was about reinstating a world where people like me do not belong.
beautifully disgusting...exactly. thank you for your passion <333 🦈
Nameless Grub · 3mo
one of my partners who originally introduced me to serious weakness recently introjected Insul to hurt me. so basically serious weakness got me laid. thanks porp
Nameless Grub · 2mo
Sorry, I forgot my question! I mentioned analyzing your website as I'm intrigued by its unique design. I was wondering if you could share some insights into the creative choices behind it?
Nameless Grub · 2mo
I found out about you when I was looking for websites to analyze for my UX design class and now I'm your new stalker, can't wait for your bug game! I love Perfect Tense so much and I frequently daydream about him (victim of brainrot)
haha i wouldn't use that terminology as i am indeed the very real thanato-erotic fixation of many unhinged individuals but thank you...from UX design class to the dregs of malarial debasement! life is full of magical little portals...
the first perfect tense game is my current focus and i am finishing up the final scenes! prepare the midden heap of Q? 2024...
Nameless Grub · 7d
i think they should give you a billion dollars and the ability to make a show on nickelodeon, jhonen vasquez style, i want to see ur grubs ooze and leak through the picket fences of the S&P board.
I love that show. never finished as a kid, watching random episodes scavenged off the old net. so we watched all of it this year. so xrafstary n insectile, everyone chugging carbonated feces, the grimy militarized school and disorienting fast food hellscape, so real. the antagonistic misery of being a child that every other show turns into a quirky fantasy.
yesss, adventures of baby xrafstar…would love to make a show that permanently fucked up the psychosexual landscape of the next generation and was immediately canceled
Nameless Grub · 9d
hi ♡ will the story collection you're putting out bring together all chapters of Cunt Toward Enemy ? If not, are you still planning a paperback of the whole thing when it's finished ?
Nameless Grub · 13d
Hey, I've been trying to buy a copy of Perfect Zine but Mixam's site is borked and doesn't let you actually complete checkout, is there anywhere else to buy it?
I love your stuff, LKS is probably my favorite but serious weakness was more effecting, you articulated things I've always felt but could never properly express
Nameless Grub · 14d
Been having dreams about playing a lot of strange games, I had a dream I was playing a new Porpentine game... All I remember was an illustrated face in your art style being presented after a curtain rolling up... It reminded me of mario brothers
i had a dream i was in a really randomly generated roguelike with long compound item names, kind of mundane and sandboxy
and i had another dream i was in a larp called Judge the Void but it was a ripoff called Blob the Void
more games should have face behind curtain!! yes!! and clapping as it is revealed...this will save gaming
Nameless Grub · 15d
will every story in the new book remain available to read on your website too, or are you pulling them from the metaphorical shelves?
Nameless Grub · 15d
what press is putting your new book out? (no worries if that's confidential for now)
Nameless Grub · 2mo
been a fan of urs for a few years now and it’s rlly helped me feel understood like no one in my real life has. your work humanizes via dehumanization and makes it look easy. i’ve been wondering, you have way more life experience than i do, do you think the stuff you give shape to via words speaks to some core feature of the human condition present in everybody, or is it just something that applies to only some ppl? like, i guess personally i spent so much time assuming that my parents understood the world more intimately than me and therefore had a clearly picture of ‘true’ reality and that i was confused and dumb, but the older i get the more i think there’s immutable differences in how we exist. this scares me because it makes me think that some part of humanity is permenamtly sealed into walls of inescapable traumatization and like separated from the world soul or sm and all we can do is try to make it hurt less. like it took way too long to find someone who understood the sentiment of ‘i just wanna get worse’ rather than adhering to the dominant hegemony that crushes any part that doesn’t fit inside it. penny 4 ur thots 🙋♀️🤷♀️💃🏽💃🏽💃🏽💃🏽
humanizes via dehumanization, yeah <3 i’m happy with how many people instinctively get that. when the mainstream trend is to handle lil guys with tweezers in weird fake ways…the highest honor i can give someone is to fuck their shit up.
because the worst is to not be taken seriously.
uh huh, it’s easy as a kid to assume everyone knows more. but adults are stupid. and even when people have expertise, it’s in a narrow area, or it might not be relevant to what you want for your life!
i guess my answer would be “it doesn’t matter”. i don’t try to impose my thoughts on the chaos of the universe. there will always be a cowardly majority, and there will always be people who don’t fit in. there are things we have in common, and things that can never be shared. all that matters is the feeling, and the result. 🪲🦎
Nameless Grub · 1mo
when i love someone it feels like delusion and when i hate someone it feels like clarity. is that attitude escapable for those of us with cptsd/autism/adhd/whatever happened to be the in vogue diagnosis when our parents took us to get psychologically evaluated?
Nameless Grub · 20d
i think i accidentally pressed the ‘ask’ button before i was done writing my question… that, or it got deleted, i am not sure. i was going to ask, was the line ‘every step the wrong one, forever’ connected to a specific part of your life? or does it still seem like every step is the wrong one? i really resonate with it as a ~20 year old who is convinced that all futures lead nowhere. thx for having a retrospring 🙏🪰🤤
it felt very true in my 20s.
with PTSD and other status effects
it is difficult to find the optimal move
and some people are punished more than others.
but everyone has to balance safety and risk.
as i gained experience, things became less confusing.
20s is a battle for the soul. but it is a necessary one, because you are alive.
i think anyone who keeps picking themselves up and is kind with themselves will find better futures.
whatever darkness you imagine will always be more limited than the reality.
even hard times can surprise you with beautiful things.
it’s better to play than to not play.
good luck <3
Nameless Grub · 21d
is the sourcecode for your games still available? i'm trying to learn twine coding, you are my biggest inspiration
Nameless Grub · 23d
nemui asada mention!!!!!!!!!! i adore both of your works so i was super happy to see you mention their stuff when talking about art styles... i think the feel of their stuff is perfect for seriweak