humiliation is what basically everything else revolves around for me. being made to do anything that feels degrading. even closer would be "shame" but i feel that that isn't exactly a fetish the same way humiliation is. i've mentioned this before but it's like, this specific fuzzy murky kind of emotion that you get from bullying someone else, or being bullied, sometimes, that just pulls you deeper and deeper until you're saying things that you never thought you ever could. obviously that doesn't mean you mean them. i love teasing. i have a bit of a weird thing about crying too. i guess i'm a masochist according to my own personal research but prefer the idea of inflicting pain to receiving it, too? sadomasochism is just such a wonderful world in general, man

anyways tldr i was bullied by pretty girls at school many years ago which destroyed my sense of identity and i have a lot of fun fetishising that ten and a bit years later. i was confused because i had crushes on them and also hated them, wanted to destroy them back and always fantasised about that. now i post about it online. tehe