I posted this on ask.fm an hour or two ago:

I've been thinking about how seductive nihilism, which I've always despised, seems to me lately. The idea that we're all just chemical sacks, and what happens happens and means very little, and nothing is "meant to be" would be a huge lift of burden off my heart.

But I know better: our souls are weaving stories, and what we do now sets the platform for what happens in all of eternity.

Should I change my beliefs just because it's convenient? I mean, it would be fair.. a lot of people are nihilists already, and you can't be blamed for having any particular outlook or stance on life when we're not given any definitive guide or answers in this life.

But I'm remined of the movie A Monster Calls. The parson wouldn't give the yew tree to the apothecary for healing people and spoke out against him because he was staunchly scientistic. Then his kids got sick and he went to the apothecary for help. The apothecary said no. The sentient yew tree then destroyed the apothecary's house, for not being committed to his beliefs and throwing them out when times got tough.