Do you love your father?
My feelings for my dad are extremely complicated. Part of me probably does still love him, but for the most part he's mainly just a big source of anger and resentment and I wouldn't mind cutting him off for a long time.
Deep down - I really don't hate him (I love him). As you know somewhat (It's complex) Sad thing is - part of me wishes I could have a close bond with him and talk. I wish we could hug and bond like father/daughter. He isn't the affectionate type and I can't judge him because I have no clue how his father was with him. (My grandfather died when I was 1) My grandmother never says anything nice about him. My father rarely ever talks about his upbringing or how his father was. (PS- I hope you are doing well, I haven't fully been on here because my timing is all off. Since I was out my notifications have been off and finding time to actually be online is at times difficult.) I know this subject is bitter sweet but I do hope you happiness in many ways. Also - Take care and stay safe :)
Yes.
Yes. I love him AND SOMETIMEs, I even LIKE him. He essentially told me I'd be better off if I killed myself during what was one of the most emotionally vulnerable moments of my life, and oBVIOUSLy I'm not rEALLY over that or other shit, some if which is ONGOING, but still I believe he loves me. Also, my dad needs me. He needs me to love him, because ultimately very few people have given him the kind of love and support folks need in order to thrive. And I need to be the kind of person I needed him to be.
i guess, it's a strong word. as i become an old drunk myself i understand him more now:)
Yes
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