Of those things, the only thing that really appeals to me is being 18 again. If I can keep my self-identity, then yeah. Being young and pretty is marketable, and I could take advantage of that. If I lose my identity, then that's not really me "being" that[...]
No, I don't really know what that entails because I don't have any interest in tik tok dance videos or 18-year-old girls. But I can imagine what some of it based on what I've seen from other kinds of near-children that men in their 40s stalk online.
I hate my life, life in general and humans but I don't deserve anything that I do not deserve be it good or bad, so no. / Ich hasse mein Leben, das Leben im Allgemeinen und Menschen doch habe ich nichts verdient was ich nicht verdient habe, sei es nun gut[...]