When I procrastinate

I don’t think I’ve ever truly hated myself. I’m not saying I’m an angel and I’ve never done anything bad - that’s far from the truth - but it’s not worth hating myself when there are plenty of people around to do that for me.

almost everyday

Failure

When I watch trash videos on youtube that I know is a waste of time. I could be much more productive doing something else instead.

Right after a pint of icecream

when do I NOT

When I've stayed up too late and feel tired in the morning. Or when I've ate too much.

Days that end in y

Sometimes I figuratively kick myself for doing something, but I don't think I ever really hate myself. I have deep and serious issues, but hating myself has never really been my problem.

Just when I'm awake or asleep

..when I hold back my furious temper, refrain from slaughtering the assholes, keep my calm. The urge to create a bloodbath is sometimes hard to bear. And I hate myself for having such strong urges and tempers, I hate myself for being wise enough to NOT do anything like this, and I hate myself for having to deal with this while the assholes seem to have a pretty happy life... I'm awful and a bad person.

When im in this fucked up procrastination zone where i dont do anything productive but also dont enjoy my time cos i just click back and forth between the same 4 websites