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in love with your writing, it scratches my brain so good, read serious weakness in one sitting, keep thinking about it whenever the camper velourium tracks by coheed and cambria play. grabbed low kill shelter for the withdrawl and read it twice in one day, now i'm going through the blog and games. your work makes me want to create fearlessly, thank you so much for sharing it
i fucking love coheed, i listen to their albums all the time when i write--the baroque emotional texture and blend of styles fits how i feel about my stories. each part of the camper velourium has the sickest choruses. on the backend of forever...
thanks for fiending for my shit, i'll keep the supply coming 💜
I loove ur games so much, thank yiu for existinggggg!
thank yiUUUUUU!!! 💜
it's been a while since i've read serious weakness, but i think fondly of my time in trianon's head. it was a painful place to be, but a comfortable place to be. thank you for writing it ^-^
i'm glad it could be a comfy skull to hide in. sometimes a little pain is realer than safety that doesn't feel like anything. thanks for reading ^O^
Impossible, soul-crushing question: I just re-read Hot Allostatic Load, for probably the third time. People are saying things about me. How do I know whether they're telling the truth, or not? How do I go on living if I can't know whether I'm a monster or a victim? There's no chance you can give a useful answer to such an incomprehensible problem, but I'm desperate. Thank you. I'm sorry. I hope you're well.
It’s easy to feel like a monster if pain is hoarded as a weapon or an intangible, strategically shifting blob. The most entitled people usually win that battle. If they say a mistake can’t be rectified, what’s the point of being in each other’s sphere?
You don’t owe people anything if the punishment for a real or imagined crime is greater than the crime itself. There is no mistake that would be improved by your suffering. If people ask for suffering instead of growth, they are dangerous.
I don’t know your situation. People get cut out for all kinds of reasons. But if people are saying things about you instead of to you, they aren’t your friends, in the most practical, pragmatic sense. This isn’t a virtue judgment on either party. Good or bad is irrelevant. Everyone needs friends for the place they are in life or they won’t grow, even a damaged person, especially a damaged person.
The way shit is set up, most people are doomed to make a lot of mistakes. But sometimes those are the people with the most insight and the most empathy and they contain the possibility of becoming better friends than the people who had everything line up for them. What’s the point of someone who never fucked up?
Monster and victim are huge ugly curses pasted on our ordinary, small lives. You’re just a person like everyone else, and you need to live. With time you will gain perspective on what happened. If you need to improve yourself, do it. If you were exploited, you will learn to protect yourself. But most of all, you have to live.
will we ever see more of the sticky zeitgeist crew? i think the ending of the 3rd episode works but i’m still so invested in everyone in those games… bweppppp
Aw thanks for loving the girls 💜 We’ve all moved on to different projects but the INNOCENTverse continues here in other forms.
Yeah, the ending is so bittersweet…Devi’s song is perfect for it. I'm sure you can imagine a good adventure for them in the place of artifacts, and the happiness of their reunion.
Ultimately there wasn't enough support to make more episodes. I also needed time to get better at managing longterm projects, it took me years to get the housing/nutrition/medical stuff I needed to properly execute bigger work. I hope the next games/books in that universe will give satisfaction!
giving trianon cunt so we can ignore it and psychologically destroy him through his butthole anyways
lol i was talking to my friend about that. an underrated dynamic!
i like the font on your blog so much i decided to use it when writing. good to increase the wriggly quality of words :)
Good taste!! The font is Avería, which means damage or failure in Spanish, and was made from many fonts averaged out. I first used it in my game Their Angelical Understanding, but as I redesigned my blog this year, I wanted it to be a luxurious place for people to read. I tried various boring but readable fonts, then I found an unusual thing about Avería, which is, normally a font with even a slight quirk is incredibly hard to read large amounts of text in—but Avería eludes that issue, it is readable but dreamlike, vaguely hallucinatory, unreal, and yes, wriggly, wormy. Not to mention fun, romantic, unique. Which makes it perfect for my FUN STORIES
Hello, what is your stance (if you have one) on Serious Weakness Paperback Cum Tributes? Asking for a friend
i think they're fucking awesome
if insul and trianon wore a Single Gay Dangle Earring what would they each wear
they would never do ANYTHING gay. but trianon would wear whatever got forcibly stabbed through his lobe and made his stupid little head tilt lopsided and throw off his fragile autistic proprioception
how old is perfect tense meant to be?
85 years young baby!!
Finished Serious Weakness yesterday. It feels like it's wedged in my head, the two boys clawed their way in. Can't remember the last time a fiction book ate at me this hard. Thank you so much for writing and sharing.
happy to share the boyworms that chewed through my amygdala!! thank you for reading 💜
Congratulations and thank you for writing an excellent novel. Serious Weakness spoke to something deep and repressed within me. It was simultaneously therapeutic and triggering to read. You have an insight into the human experience that, to me, is umatched.
thanks for entering the exposure therapy hell cage 💜 your words are very kind
love your stuff. everything feels so strange at first glance but then the longer i read/play the more it feels so much more real than everything else i have seen. and that normalisation? is that the right word? of violence, that i don't think i've seen elsewhere. feels so honest. your works are always so sincere. hurts in all the right ways. taught me to appreciate the icky things. to like the texture of things as much as their looks. thank you for putting this stuff out there. glad that i encountered you (or what part of you is in your work) despite the distances and coldness of the world. softens the void.
When I was very young, a lot of things seemed gross, especially because adults presented them as diseased and banal. But then I read materials that gave me more aesthetic versions of those things, and bodies and cum and faggotry became beautiful.
And yeah people treat violence as exceptional, shocking, when for a lot of people it’s very ordinary. Even in the absence of explicit violence, the radiation of it is everywhere, and it hurts to be told otherwise when one is sensitive. I never write something of any genre if I can’t find the reality in it. Fantasy, scifi, doesn’t matter, I can only enjoy it if it’s real.
So I’m happy these aesthetic blueprints or pressure depth cocktails could widen the aperture of bearable reality. Thank you for reading. 💜
hello i've played a few of your games and now want to get into your writing but am not sure where to start. or should i just entrust myself to fate and wander the porpentine world and go with whatever comes my way?
also, hope you are having a good day/night
You have two options
1) I have a stupid thick back catalog so you can surrender to chaos. This is fun but unpredictable.
2) For my personal recommendation: Serious Weakness if you like torture/horror/romance. For something less heavy, Low Kill Shelter is horror romance but not as dark.
But I’m fond of anything I’ve written in the last couple years. The stories page on my site is good. I also have a story guide here with some tags and genres.
And thank you, I had a really good week. Sometimes I’m too sickly to respond to letters as soon as I’d like, but I appreciate them, and hope you enjoy what you find!
on the paperback version of serious weakness you mention it being revised and polished and deluxe, what extent of edits did you consider valid to go into another edition of an already-published book? i haven't read the 'non-deluxe' edition to compare lol
The paperback is the same as the digital version, I unified them shortly after. I don't think anyone who read it on release will need to re-read it, except for the bonus stories. When you’re really into a story, you slurp up sentences in big mouthfuls, you crack them open to find the meaning, to get to the soft bits that dissolve beyond any technical skill of the reader or writer.
There's probably a few new lines, but for the most part a final edit like this is barely noticeable to the reader, a back-end improvement that quietly enhances the luxury. Subtle strengthening in characterization, and the kind of chiseling where a 70% good sentence becomes 90% good, etc.
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