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you have a really nice voice! not really a question, though. best wishes :)
thank you so much!! 💜💜💜🎶🪰
i finally got my gf to start reading serious weakness and she keeps sending me insul quotes and saying it reminds her of the shit i say / do to her. am i going to hell? she wants to marry me btw
hi previous anon who said "Your very airy but pointed writing is my favorite style of writing I can get behind. " with a very long long ask.
I read your work "honeydew toxicity event" and im not gonna lie that definitely rewired my brain... in a cool way. Some of the comments found some slight sexual gratification with what happened to the MC but i will say that that wasnt what i felt, but i was morbidly invested. ur stuff is literally filled 2 the brim with this fascination w just... nasty gross unorthodox strange near torture shit and i find it so. so cool.
i find the deeper themes of it very interesting... Sometimes I underestimate my reading comprehension because I was surprised by a commenter having the same interpretation as i did on it...
The swelling torment of a gamer tainted by the "astroturfed internet". His compulsive comfort of drinking mountain dew acts as the seed and the water that grows and swells into something unable to be hidden, and embraced by online friends. They acted as a basking of comfort in a moment of pure naked embarassment... Its poetic. Also i like seeing. things happen to strange men.
Recently Bought Serious Weakness. it seems to be a long. Tough read. But im hoping to embark on it (whenever these ADHD meds finaly kick in.) Im a gay dude with a strange relationship w gender so im hoping this yaoi with the crazy tags on it really give me a read to read. But i have a feeling with your pen it will be something to remember
Hope u enjoyed reading all this as much as i did typing it!
oh my it took me so long to get to cte 6 but this, this is such good stuff, im devouring it, your works are always so cinematic, i can just see it in my head, ahhhhhhhhh
also in reverse your stories made me realise how a lot of movies can be better just by being a lot more gay
thank you haha i come at it from a very visual angle, i'd love to see them as animations or comics, liquid television...thank you so much! its gotta be gay!
just curious: when writing, do you visualize your characters the same way you draw them/the way they appear in your drawings? also: hope you’re having a great day 🫶🏻
writing and drawing have overlap but are different. i have more practice writing, so my drawings are more for fun.
when i write, they start as blobs in my head, cohering into insects, liquid focalities, a collage of real and cartoon shards. they are never still, never complete. tutelary spirits or demons.
my drawings are just one interpretation, and i draw them different every time. it helps me think about them in time and space, the logic of their bodies. but i want people to have their own versions.
thanks, my day is good! you too! <3
miss charity pls know that cunt toward enemy has become a Relationship Activity for my wife and i..... somehow whenever a new part is posted i end up seeing it first, and then i get to jostle her/text her depending on our current proximity and scream about it with her. there was a LOT of screaming with the latest chapter!
seeing people enjoy it with their friends is so nice, i've been really liking the episodic way of releasing it. screamable finale yesss!!
i'm almost done with the next episode. thanks for reading along...cunt toward enemy...the virtuous marital companion!
how upset was your NSA guy about the research you did for cunt towards enemy?
they're scrambling to avert a gay 9/11
your work makes me feel less alone. and i never really knew how much i needed that--needed to not "feel alone"--to be able to experience the full boundlessness of myself, to have energy to live and dance. can tell you im a better person for it. thank you for sharing.
i'm really happy that's what you got out of it. it can be easy to get locked inside a small part of oneself. dancing is really important, in every possible meaning of the word. thank you for sharing the feeling 💜
i wouldn't have ever expected to find myself sexually attracted to the idea of a horrifically mutilated explosion survivor, but uhhhh you have a way with words!! 🥴 thank you for expanding people's minds & anuses with your writing <3
love that i could rubi-pill you 💥💊 one of my biggest rewards for writing is getting people to consider what they never would otherwise. there is so much texture within deformity but it’s rarely taken seriously or aestheticized, especially during sex. much more compelling than if he was a mere blond pretty boy. so helpless but so dangerous…i’m so pleased that you get it! <3
i've been playing armored core 6 and whenever the rubicon liberation front appears i can't help but think "damn i'd like to liberate rubicon's front" i shit you not
haha yeah get in that surgically carved catheter hole!!
it is interesting to think about. a totally denied area held taut by scar tissue, conventional signifiers ablated. intimacy as an engineering or medical problem or sublimated entirely away from the body. cant believe they made a whole game about him but he deserves it. keep fighting for that boy nullpussy ✊🔥🤖
I’ve only read cunt chapter 1 and I’m ineloquent but I want to send you my most immediate most raw meat most cerebrospinal fluid still steaming thoughts: rubichan, in the state he’s in, as obliterated and ravaged and total loss as he is, crafting something like that… it can’t be easy, right? he’s working so hard and so desperately? For connection for comprehension for destruction for annihilation…… a creature of frayed and flayed flesh and bone and nerves seeking infrared-homing vengeful pitiful……. I drink this yaoi bouqet for that alone so deeply, and the saw film dubcon is just. Infinite chef’s kiss. I can’t believe I get to read more of this, of him and them!!!
rubichan!!! 😭
i think that's very eloquent! thank you for your passion!!
yes!! you'll actually learn more about his work flow a couple episodes into season 2. there was a period of physical therapy where it was very hard, and it's still hard with fewer fingers, because he doesn’t like to delegate something so intimate. but he’s built up a set of tools to compensate for his body. and obsession is a powerful motivator.
yesss saw movies always needed to be gayer, they really squandered the potential with each sequel. thank you for coming on this bombfuck journey into the mind of madness…messages like this make it all worthwhile! 💥💐
i'm sure this has been asked and answered before but i forget so please refresh my memory: is there an official serious weakness companion playlist...
I find that I need to put in a lot of effort sometimes to read your stuff, but it's so worth it, thanks for making stuff that makes me really read, instead of the easily consumable content that's so common nowadays, it really reminds me of what I'm actually looking for when I read
💜 im so happy to hear that. it's hard to find raw meat out here. i always want the effort to have an equivalent payoff.
now i'm dreaming of my stories being in the YA section of libraries, 70s dark YA AU or porpentine animorphesque xrafstar series...
i'm a ''''game developer'''' (i made one game that got streamed by a kind of shitty but very popular guy 10 years ago) and i've been trying to make a new game but the first game i made was extremely full of copyrighted material because i just built it out of whatever i wanted, whatever came to mind, including mp3s on my desktop and things i just googled and added without a second thought.
now, broke and desperate, i have been forced by the Machine that zaps me whenever i can't pay it money to create something Monetizable™. i am trying to build the game but i am stricken with David Lynch's Thought Poison™ ("I didn't really feel like I had permission to make it my own. (...) little by little, I was subconsciously making compromises-- knowing I couldn't go here and not wanting to go there. I just fell, you know, into this middle world. It was a sad place to be.") because the part of me that just wants to put whatever the fuck I want into the game is fighting against the anxiety of knowing if I use AI textures or ogg files of 12 second loops from songs I like or pictures of public figures or art from random sources or fonts that I got from questionably legal websites that even if I make a really good game that I'm proud of, I won't be able to sell it to help myself pay the Eternal Zapping Machine. how do I navigate this moral and existential crisis?
you could use creative commons or pre-copyright material. there are so many obscure old archives waiting to be collaged. you can also take pictures/record foley in the world. and a lot of material from any source becomes unrecognizable with enough distortion. music is the most litigious media to watch out for. but it wouldn't be an issue either way unless it was a very lucrative game, which is pretty rare. good luck!
do you think you'll ever sell any of your other visual art as posters, like you did with elf cum 9/11? i am a proud owner of that one and i would love to have a whole porpentine gallery in my room one day 🐜🐛🦎🪱🪳🦠
aw, i'd love that. are there any particular pieces you like? i could look into an inprnt or something... 🪳🧫👁️🪱💎
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