why not hug all of them? ¯_(ツ)_/¯ (if i had to choose i'd go for 100 cat-sized catgirls though)
honestly, i don't think there really was a "when", it's always been in the back of my mind in some way or another, took me a while to find out i could transition though
mostly estrogen, and a bit of having fun being cute
~(◕ᴗ◕~) !
more specifically i identify as panromantic asexual, so relationships with anyone, just no lewdness :)