What's something about you/your life you need to unpack in therapy?
When I was in therapy it helped me in regard to recovering from addiction but I was a bad patient. I didn't trust the two therapists I went to, I didn't give them a chance to be trustworthy either. I omitted details, found ways to avoid speaking about several things I should have. I omitted things I thought made people that I love sound like bad people when I knew they were not, or I thought that talking about them made it seem like I wasn't taking responsibility for things that I knew were my fault. I just did therapy wrong. Now I also need to get therapized about why I did therapy like that in the first place and why I still feel ashamed and guilty about it.
It's a long list but I think the most important one is that I have problems connecting/socializing with people. I get super nervous and anxious.
In my country therapy is usually for rich people TBH. I use online platform like Retrospring and Twitter to unpack and vent my bottled up feelings. It sometimes helps ...
I don't know if anything can be done at this point, it's buried/integrated so deeply, but if anything then it's my dad's constant intense nastiness and rage all the years I was growing up.. exploding for the most trivial annoyances or mistakes. He was Satan to me, and he destroyed my confidence and made me terrified of other people.
I once had a friend who told me things, of course of sexual nature, and she said she would not even tell a therapist about it and I can understand her. A therapist can never be a friend, it is a professional relationship. I have things like that as well I would never tell a therapist.
Hm, no therapy so far beyond some medical issues in the past.
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