I'm not special. That's why I feel safe to show who I am physically with my actual name. Some of you know me (somewhat).Through these (5 or more) years that I've continued to be part of the ancient spring.me /retro/modern/kiwi gang, I've come to appreciate the journey. Since the beginning of it all, I've loved being able to express myself from time to time within selfies and post. Have there been moments where I'd rethink how much I've shared? Yes. Nonetheless, can't ever let any paranoia ever set in. From then on, I just try to not over expose myself in anyway- Precautions to being vulnerable. Plus it's easy to only give 15% and an open window for dialogue. In the past I've been hurt by being open. Probably many could attest to once trusting others to only be hurt -so they build walls.

(🌺C'est la vie)🐛 Eternamente Aprendiendo y Descubriendo Ser un Ser Simple y Genuino . 🐖=🐣( That's life) 🦋 eternally learning and discovering to be a being that's simple and genuine 🐢 (ps- sorry for the long response -I got carried away)

When we shop for protein sourced meals /meat - Are we hunting but with less blood shed? (Yes, it's sad knowing how the world works) Lives lost in order for others to continue and the circle of live) At the end of the day, ethics and morals are for a civilized and modernized mindset. As humans adapted and everything changed. As in stores were created and others hunted for us- Well we started judging them for doing so. I just can't cast judgement on something that if you look at it will continue on other levels in the animal kingdom- sure without guns but none the less it will happen and they won't think twice about attacking if it means living another day.

Ever experience gastrointestinal severity from Gastroparesis? (I've gone to the hospital twice for that) Imagine your body having to upchuck because food is just not digesting. That to me is more painful and scarier than having stuffy.runny nose, fever, cough or drowsiness. You're left with the acid burning your digestive tract but before that you have the burning sensation that has you bloated. A nausea fills your sense and you try walking it off but your body knows what it has to do and you inevitably have to expel what your body could not take down. :/ Having to go to sleep after this is horrid. I would prefer taking meds to get rid of the cold than having to deal with the after math of anything dealing with digestive issues.

Deep down - I really don't hate him (I love him). As you know somewhat (It's complex) Sad thing is - part of me wishes I could have a close bond with him and talk. I wish we could hug and bond like father/daughter. He isn't the affectionate type and I can't judge him because I have no clue how his father was with him. (My grandfather died when I was 1) My grandmother never says anything nice about him. My father rarely ever talks about his upbringing or how his father was. (PS- I hope you are doing well, I haven't fully been on here because my timing is all off. Since I was out my notifications have been off and finding time to actually be online is at times difficult.) I know this subject is bitter sweet but I do hope you happiness in many ways. Also - Take care and stay safe :)