i know we don't know each other that much but, you can talk to me abt it! not a good talker but a good listener <3/p im not trying to control what you're going to do but, js know that there are many of your friends that are going to worry and wouldn't probably accept if you try what you're going to do. I do not know what you're going into so i apologize for saying this out of the blue but i hope you don't continue it, try taking a break! its not good if you continue thinking about the thoughts, try remembering happy memories and completely forget about those thoughts, but if it doesn't help, i don't know what to say but, we're not close still i'll be upset! once again, stay safe and healthy.