Thank you very much for the kind words, anon. I appreciate that. I elaborated more upon that on my site's blogposts, but unfortunately I think that's just a core aspect of who I am and I'll just have to put it to good use. It's not like I never think I'm cool or good at anything sometimes, it's just that I feel more comfortable in expressing my self-destructive, self-reductive feelings. But I'll be fine anon, I'll have the help of kind peopel like you.