Hey.
I saw what was sent last night and you didn't deserve that. I get it, people are upset Doc's gone. I am too. But that was uncalled for and you probably didn't need that ATM..idk who it was, I have a feeling I may know, but I'll keep my thoughts to myself. People need to accept the fact that you miss him too. You care about him, you patched shit up w him. Even if people don't like you or they're pissy he's gone, I think last night opened my eyes about why he might actually be gone. Especially after reading what your girlfriend said...I hope shit gets better and you don't receive those kinds of messages anymore. You're hurting and you're missing him too, you should be allowed to feel that way. If you genuinely patched it up and you think that things are okay between you two, then you deserve to be left in peace while you grieve his absence. I trust the word of people who said that they saw this conversation, and that it proved there was some form of care between you both and wasn't one sided. I hope things get better for you, I hope he comes back, and I hope you both have a nice friendship if he does. I hope he can set the record straight when he returns, because I agree. He wouldn't approve of people sending this kind of bilge on his behalf. What you were sent was nothing short of vile, and even if I was pissed at you about everything going on I could never bring myself to think something so evil, let alone /say/ it to you. We miss him in the community, but maybe there was actually something of a connection with you both. Maybe there was interference and..maybe there's blame on other parties for the reason your friendship crumbled the way it did. I'm starting to connect a few dots, and I'm really not liking it. Especially seeing you post the evidence that Roger was liking your posts on one of his accounts, when he was saying he wanted to just stay away and mind his damn business. I won't pretend that didn't piss me off, cause it sure as shit did.

Either way, hope that it gets better for you. Just take time to heal and rest up. I'm sure he'll be back and maybe things'll be better.