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Anonymous Coward · 2y

Does Amir have any aftermaths, being them physical or psychological, after being close to turn into a lightwarden?

Physically not much changed other than the vision in her previously scarred left eye getting blurrier and more distorted. The body horror part was the easiest one to compartmentalize, comparatively speaking; Amir can take a lot of punishment, and has been through a lot of duress throughout her life. Psychologically, it was a harrowing experience, another notch on her belt of "traumatic things that should give me PTSD, but instead of coming to terms with it I decided to instead push them to the back of my mind and ignore. Surely this will not have negative future consequences."

The most long lasting consequence came in the form of her personal relationships, and becoming more keenly aware of the increasing strain her role as the WoL has been placing on the people closest to her. It's easier to throw yourself at dangerous things when you're on your own, harder when people are forced to helplessly watch from the sidelines. Particularly, it tinged a lot of her relationship with Sébastien into something very bittersweet (in the time between shb and ew), as the farewell she had with him before storming the tempest meant he had to go through the process of having to mourn her likely death (and then having her coming back from it) a second time. Once is exhausting enough, but twice is too much. After 5.0, Amir has to wrestle between the selflessness of her role as the WoL, and the selfishness of clinging on to people for their warmth, even if the extents of her duty hurts them, and she cannot abandon her role to save herself - or them.

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