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★ᯓ ㅤ regulus ㅤ 。 · 2 answers · 8mo

qotd, who is your favorite person / character, and why ? feel free to ramble as much as you'd like ^_<

[Sorry for posting this again, I found a bunch of errors and other shortcomings with the text and had to fix and improve them.]


Hmm, hard to choose who my favorite person is, I'd say either

Albert Einstein, because of his penetrating mind, imagination and intuition, resulting in his multiple brilliant revolutionalizations of physics, and because I closely relate to his character, including the traits I just mentioned, the fact that he would often get lost just on his way to work, his critique of capitalism, his mystical view of the cosmos, and his long, disheveled hair. The kids in my junior high class called me Albert Einstein, my cousin once removed (a girl, then about 7 years old) once called me Albert Einstein when I expressed a latent side of me from deep within that I'd never expressed before (it wasn't a brainiac type thing), my friend who used to be psychic once told me I was Albert Einstein in my past life, another spiritually connected friend said she compared my and Einstein's energies and they matched (and she's not particularly a people pleaser so wouldn't have said that willy nilly), and my middle name is Albert. I wouldn't have to consider anyone else for my favorite person if not for the fact that he apparently wasn't very good to his 2 wives.

John von Neumann, because he was so smart it was literally scary

William James Sidis, because he had the highest IQ of anyone by far, estimated to be about 250, or according to this one source I just read, between 250 and 300. The statistical likelihood, based on the Gaussian distribution of IQ, of one person out of 7 billion people having an IQ of 250 is apparently .0000000000000359. His IQ was higher than anybody else's by far. All the other smartest of the smartest people in the world tend to be limited to just below the 200 mark.

My mom. She's been my best friend, the cheeriest person I know, she occasionally embodies the most divine joy of anyone I've seen, she's the person I relate to most, and she's the person who loves me most my whole life. She's actually my favorite person, but I didn't put her at the top because I took this question to mean public names.

Darin "Stevenson" - http://facebook.com/darinstevenson ; https://organelle.medium.com/ - he has a handle on what real life is and how our modern mode of thinking deviates from it, is blind to it and destroys it, that I really don't think anybody else in the world is even close to having. He is invaluable to the human condition, and he's also relatively good at expressing these ideas in writing. He once claimed that he has the "bicameral mind," and I thought it was just his ego speaking until I talked to him on the phone and I realized that he really does. It's a shame few people seem to really be able to appreciate what he's onto, and I'm one of them, maybe the only one. The only reason I joined Darin's IRC channel initially after seeing him talk a little was because I thought he was a girl based on his writing style, so that's basically why I got to know him.

Neale Donald Walsch - if any media I've ever come across has had the power to actually change my life, it's his books. In his books he claims to be channeling God Him/Herself, and I genuinely believe he is. It's his books that convinced me that there is a God and that He/She is intelligent. I'm very good at perceiving the most subtle weaknesses in all levels of human expression, from grammar to word choice to intentionality to energy, and God's parts of the dialogue are so flawless and pure that they couldn't possibly have been created by a mere human. And in the books God gives us guidelines for how to live well while revealing the most fundamental truths of Nature, and the books said some things that I'd always thought but had never heard anyone else say. I actually dropped a tear on one of the pages the first time I read it.

Miranda Cosgrove - my biggest crush. Her face is so perfect, and I used to watch iCarly and be in awe at the manner of her self-expression, it was like she was an emotional genius and also she actually lived somewhere in my heart, like we're two peas in a pod. And her personality is pure and her smile has more true joy in it than almost anyone's. Miranda Cosgrove and my father share a birthday.

Or my longtime friend Kyla, AKA idali - She's truly amazing, and I don't think I've ever met a more kindred spirit and mind than her. Her mode of creativity was always so directly striking to me that witnessing her was kind of like getting abducted into a higher mind, her energy felt just like mine, only her ability to express it was more like what I wished I were, she indicated psychic sensitivity on many occasions, but not in the "I'm gonna give you a reading" sense, it was more just revealed in her whimsical expressions that made no excuses for not necessarily being connected to anything. Nowadays we're just friends, but back in the day I was utterly infatuated with her. The lyrics to Lamb - Gorecki seemed perfectly fitting:

I've found the one I've waited for
All this time I've loved you
And never known your face
All this time I've missed you
And searched this human race

Everyone who wasn't idali just seemed to be shadows of her to greater or lesser degrees.
I guess it sounds like I have/had borderline personality disorder, but really it's just the power of witnessing something so close and real. A friend of hers I once talked to, who had truly impressed me with his ability to remain mentally stationed within the realm of our higher selves, told me that idali was an apotheosis. Here's a random event that may or may not be related: One time she asked me if I ever took anything she says to be sarcastic. I said that sarcasm has a certain energy to it that I didn't associate with her. She said, "Odd, isn't it?"

I once wrote this about her:

Corpus Christi

Have you ever met the culmination of your dreams.. that one person that exactly meets, and exceeds, your greatest expectations for all the people you've ever met or imagined, combined? You'd never have even known there was a common thread to it all, if they weren't right there in the flesh. And it's not even so much that they exceed your expectations, as that not in your wildest dreams had you ever thought such a manifestation is actually possible in this world. It's like dreaming you can fly, but while keeping both feet firmly on the ground.. and then just finding yourself in the air one day. They're a perfect reflection of you, to the essence. They're everything you ever wanted to be, there before you. Like God himself is always so unattainable, but yet this person is exactly One Step between God and your heart.. and somehow she thinks you bring her closer to God? They are to you what a supernova could have been to its former star. It could almost seem to be another crescendo in infatuation except.. you know that nobody else will ever compare. Nobody ever has and nobody ever will. She's exceptional somehow. She's Real. Some other humans have been real, but by virtue of being merely humans, are not as real as she. The whole phenomenon is amazing. Her eyes even look suspiciously similar to yours.. But the only the remaining question is, will she ever recognize you? The answer, my friend, is...a piece of wax fallin' on a termite who's chokin on the splinters. It's the Rube Goldberg machine where you're the mouse trapped in the end and it's The Devil who's always been at the beginning. All you have is an e-mail address, and she only responds once every 2 months.. Oh well, you conclude, there's always the afterlife.. I call this sort of experience "an idali." Has that ever happened to you?

Oh, and when I first met her she was using the handle ||||||||, which I thought was awesome (and something I would probably do), so I talked to her in private a little. She said at one point, "You are neat.", so it felt like a success. Years later I saw her again under the handle idali, and she had a completely different personality, yet somehow I knew immediately that it was her. I asked her what made her change, and she mentioned that friend I talked about earlier who's mentally stationed in the realm of the higher self and told me she's an apotheosis, and four songs (I'm probably remembering this wrong). Two of them were Black Tape for a Blue Girl - The Apotheosis and Lvx Nova - A Lake.

She's different nowadays, but she seems partially enlightened: she can see through to the unity of all beings, places and times, she fiercely loves everyone, and she's well-grounded in/at one with the origin and creation of all concepts.

Björk - This list is getting too long, soon I'll be listing all my crushes ever, but I'll try to include just this one more. Early '90s Björk was so ridiculously cute and had such an adorable personality (see don't let poets lie to you and Human Behavior), in addition to being one of the most talented artists of her time, that it makes me wonder once again why the universe would keep producing girls that perfectly fit all of my qualifications for the most intense desire. And also, if they're such perfect matches for me, why am I likely nothing like what they'd be looking for in a man.

Oh, and there's also my best friend and kindred spirit Arlen AKA ki. I've known him for 24 years. I first saw him in a philosophy IRC channel going "hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe", which made me want to get to know him better, so I followed him into his own channel. He was very pure and creative, like a child, only more so, and he made some good, hilarious, short, self-satirizing poems. He's in the top 0.01 percentile for physical height. All the girls loved him. I clearly see myself in his emotional/mental dispositions often (more so in the past than now, but still now to some degree). Not long after I met him, something happened to him which made him swear off everything spiritual forever and also ended up slowly making him more and more mental. Nowadays he's quite insane, is on a ton of medications, and finds it difficult to manage. The various old, new, and repeating delusions he constantly talks about and expects me to believe kind of irritate me, but I just take it in stride. He often apologizes for being so delusional, says he loves me, or thanks me for being his friend. He offers me money, like $100, for Christmas and my birthday even though he can't even afford food half the time and frequently smokes cigarette butts off the ground. He used to be acutely psychically sensitive, demonstrating his sensitivity on multiple occasions by reacting to something I had thought or saying something that was going on with me that he couldn't have known by any "normal" means.

Oh, speaking of that, Darin did that with me once, too. I had recently started a project, which I rarely ever do, and probably hadn't done yet as long as I'd known him, without saying anything about it online, and he asked me out of the blue to tell him about my new project. So, regarding his deep understanding of the nature of life and his writings about it, his money is obviously where his mouth is.


For characters, I'm not sure, I have a few characters I like, I listed them here https://retrospring.net/@voice/q/112265501360714634, but I guess I'd say the most perfect one is Leeloo Minai Lekarariba-Laminai-Tchai Ekbat De Sebat from The Fifth Element. When I watched that movie it seemed like the writers (and I guess Milla Jovovich too) had some unique insight into exactly what I would find most attractive in a girl, and took advantage of that in making the film. I was truly surprised. Once I read some lady saying that they made her childish in order to appeal to the lowest common denominator of men, and that kind of felt like a potential bitter pill, but whatever, screw that lady, it's more than that. ;P

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