I know nobody really checks here so I am kind of blogging now, I don't really know. This is more of a vent. The vent I will be talking about might be triggering but I frankly think this is not that bad, I will keep who I am talking about anonymous, so nobody attacks or knows really who I am talking about as this is not to cause drama. So, I had a friend for a couple of months, and I am really attached to them because of my attachment issues. We liked to talk about marine animals and play oc makers, honestly, I was happy I could have a friend that actually stayed with me instead of unfriending me the next day. As months progressed, I started to fall in love and as myself I never felt love in a long time, so it was a weird feeling. I didn't want to tell my friend that I loved them yet, so I tried to put out some hints because I was nervous since I know that my friend has blocked people before, and I don't want to lose a friend. When they finally got on to what I was saying they were shocked because nobody really asked them out before. I was nervous because they sounded hesitant, so I reminded them it's okay to say no, there is no pressure. Later that day they said yes, and I was in shock because of how nervous her texting was but she agreed. I was nervous to come and sit by them and they started talking about how they are very jealous, and I told them that's okay, we talked about how we are in relationships, I left after a while so I could sleep. I felt really happy that day and went to bed. The next morning to my surprise they were not in my friend list, I assumed "well they're offline all the time!" so I went to their retro spring to ask, as I went there, I was blocked and my messages I sent on there were gone, it was like I didn't exist. I started to have a break down and refused to be heartbroken because I been heart broken by so many people. I went to their straw page, and they deleted my drawing, my heart flattered and sank. I then wrote on their question thing from straw page on how I wished they could have explained why they're blocking me and told me beforehand cause now I feel this way. I have had this happen before, but it was way different where I caught my girlfriend cheating on me and she said she doesn't know who I am and I am crazy and then some other gal said you just wish you had her; my heart was broken. I am very unstable at the moment, I don't feel right, I have been taking walks to talk to myself for comfort. I understand why they could have hidden me because they probably don't feel the same way and felt bad so they agreed and blocked me, or they could have just been uncomfortable. But people need to realize hiding a person and blocking them can mean a lot to them because even if they only bet you for a little while they still have feelings, and it can be broken. It's better to explain to them why and then block them. My heart hearts but usually it goes away after 2 years so I'll be fine in 2026. I hope they could see me now; I just wish they could explain. It hurts to let go of someone that you found comfort in and actually enjoyed being around.