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An Invisible Inquirer · 5mo

Do you dislike people as a species or you dislike being around them due to anxiety?

Yes. Also I love how poorly I've managed to conceal my misanthropy to get such a question.

However, there are several individual people I like, and even love. In the words of one of my favourite video game characters, it's too much work to hate them one by one. So I don't throw murderous glances at everyone I meet and I generally try to assume people are at least somewhat kind or pleasant, and try to act accordingly.

But it's true that I've lost hope for humans as a species. And my anxiety makes being around folks weird and uncomfortable, even with familiar people, let alone strangers. I'm often convinced that everyone hates me. But their hate will always come second to the contempt I feel for myself. Every day I'm absolutely sure that I should just remove myself completely from the internet and world in general and hide in my blanket fort for all eternity. But I haven't, yet. I guess that's something.

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