Oh, God! I am surprised, it's been a while since I opened Retrospring and I saw this message in my inbox. You can guess according to what you believe, don't ask me cause I have to rack my brain for that. Do your best, I'll take my seat to see!

My inner dialogue is a little debate that my brain and my heart have, when I decide something that can leave me in a (mostly) bad position as the result. I think I've tried as hard as I can, but sometimes what we want didn't go according to what we've planned. Reasonable and understandable, I don't want to complain about that fate.

I lost my soul. It had been torn, clawed, and eaten raw by people who no longer made me feel worthy. There are so many traces that were lost long ago, I hope someone is trying to turn those forgotten feelings into a never-ending stairway to heaven. I can't do it alone cause if I do it then I can't turn my attention to anyone by carrying these long dead feelings, it will hurt someone also everyone.

The thing that makes me feel so glad cause I win in life is when I can romanticize everything that happens to me, when I feel everything makes me comfortable and I can escape from the problems that continue to show its ego to wrestle in my mind. In short, I'm in a state of my "best" when I can enjoy whatever comes naturally. Many things are included in it whether it's friendship, mate, or so on.

I'm not sure if this would be the "worst" or nah, but something I can 't tolerate when someone acts a lot in my life. When they act like they know most things in my life cause it can make me mad anytime, I'm not a person who can behave the same way towards one person as another. I can control my emotions very well, but if someone tries to take away what I have kept tightly closed. I think I don't hesitate to silence them, hope my answer is able to fulfill your question.

My life changed drastically since this May, someone came and taught me that not everyone always does the same thing. He came to me with a green flag, so I hope you know how I always smile every single day. I was enjoying my life, still staying up until 3 AM to make sure someone was okay in his sleep.

I do write for fun, I express my thoughts in it. The reason I can give is: I'm so glad if other people can feel the meaning and be carried away by my writing, even though it always provides implied meaning. But that's my way, I found my style since long time ago. There's a lot of sadness and hurts, I'll write again so you can see some of my work later.

There's no such thing as "too much" in my friendship, I think I know how to limit myself with other people about how my life is. Honestly, I know what can I open and what I've to close for each different person, so I won't feel difficult cause I have given a ration to each person.

Nah, I've never gotten it this far. I don't know what causes it, but it happens very rarely to me. And if that happens to me, I'm cool with it.