I miss him . I miss him so much . I understand he needs some time to himself but I'm horrified at the thought of him never coming back . I feel so selfish wanting him back but I can't help it . We've been together since the very beginning of time , and its rough without him by my side . I want to scream and cry , but there's no point . I have a lingering feeling of guilt whenever I touch something that belonged to him . I feel guilty when I take over his account even though I'm supposed to. I feel guilty when I take a step into his  old room . I know it's my room now , but it just feels so wrong . I feel like I'm disrespecting him . I feel like I could've helped him before he made his decision . If only I showed up 5 minutes earlier . I l o v e y o u , F o u r . - 🌷