I just can't get the ideas out of my head about his internalized misogyny growing up, trying harder than everyone to achieve academically while absolutely festering inside about society INCLUDING regarding gendered expectations and having not a single understanding or kind person to share it with. No doubt he was in denial for a while, tried to swing around to convincing himself that he could meet those expectations. It's so sad but GOD the vibes!

He super needs to get laid, get his back broken in man, let off some of that stress!!