Lumayan berat ya, pertanyaannya. Lately, I'm on that phase but I try to face it (Bismillah). I catch myself zoning out about random stuff, everything feels so dull boring monochrome, and my life feels monotonous. This is a numb phase I DON'T wanna keep dealing with. So, lately I've been trying new things (like I'm learning to writing poetry even though I'm not great at it). These might seem like small things to others. But life is more meaningful when I endow in them (new things or my hobbies), not sumn that harms others. When I feel like giving up, I always remind myself, maybe... there's a new games, lores, or surprises tomorrow? We never know how future holds, actually.

Life might sucks sometimes and feel pointless. But I always believe tomorrow could be better, Insya Allah. I promise, they'll bring new colors. Try reaching out to others, don't feel like you're alone even if you think you are. There are people out there who'll welcome you with open arms, who will warmth accept you. Hope everything okay ya, sender. Semangat terus.