I really have no idea. I must say that I am not active enough to seek out long-term friendships, nor am I good at maintaining close relationships, both here and real life. I tend to stay in one space, and those around me are the ones I consider friends. It's hard to explain my online presence, especially since I use Minkyeung as my profile picture, yet I struggle to fully immerse myself in roleplaying as her. The simplest explanation would be that it's a small escape from work life, but sometimes the frustration I experience here outweighs that of my job. It's all rather intangible, I suppose. Or... perhaps it's about achieving an aesthetic that's difficult to attain in real life, given my current setup.