Kinda a vent sorry

Genuinely what did we do in our past life to deserve this. What did we do?? What could we have possibly done in our past lives to get this life. Why do we have to have all these mental problems. Why do they have to be serious and disabling and prevent us from having a good life. Why are we "oh cringe super sensitive" autism and not "cool good at maths" autism. Why are we "lazy unmotivated" ADHD and not "hyperfocus powerhouse" ADHD. Why can we not stop being caught up in our own imagination and daydreams, why can we not live in the moment, why do we have to walk around barely taking anything in because we're so dissociated
Why do we have to break down over gloves, why are we embarrassed to tell someone irl about our religion, why can we never get enough sleep or feel well-rested, why can we never keep up on our schoolwork
What the fuck did we do to the freshman in band who says all those things to us
What did we do
What did we do.

We're so sorry.