i've got so mucccch. all of the time! i actually don't know where to start!

i started watching outer banks and now i want to write a beach/island-y vibe fic. i've been cheffing up snippets, part sexy summer vacation-y. part folk horror-y. part bully/bullied but with a dynamic most probably wouldn't expect it to morph into.

i saw this twt post that was like "let's cuddle and if it slips in, it slips in" and it has been tumbling around in my brain making noise like if you put something heavy in a dryer.

intak is always on my brain. i gotta do something new with him eventually. i started a oneshot where he's like at a club high off of his mind and keekee tries and fails to find who he came here with and things kinda quickly devolve as they speedrun codependency but idk if i like how it's moving just yet.

this game called zenless zone zero is about to come out and my hype for it is definitely making me want to write something scifi/urban fantasy. lololol i used to always write genre stuff but these last few months, for a multitude of reasons, i've kinda been doing nothing but contemporary/canon-compliant (which isn't BAD, just different from what i used to do.)

just a lot of STUFF. i've had like 8 goog docs open since the weekend, slowwwwly but steadily pecking away at different things (which is making me feel like they're all turning out the same, but....)

rather than all time favorites, i think my fave ships rotate in and out like weekly specials at a bistro. in the vannersphere, sungkook/hyesung has been a best-seller because we combine the handmade, doughy consistency of the long distance relationship aspect with the classic 'he could only say i love you on april fool's day' and then serve it chilled with a sprig of mint and the caption ["are you surviving?" asks the one who is not surviving] and we get a neatly arranged, citrus-y set suitable for the summer.

on the evnne side of the menu, the delicious one-sided keita/yunseo is still a staple with fresh, in-season ingredients. especially since yunseo's yearning has become so integral that it's beyond canonically acknowledged now.

and if you check our chalkboard, another ship of the week is jeonghyeon/hanbin. fairly standard during the early days but was taken off the menu to make room for other, seasonal items. now it's back by popular demand with an updated recipe! like, the one-sided yearning (a CLASSIC ingredient!) now runs the other way! who would have thought such a change would have this massive of an impact on the flavor profile! definitely more savory now. best for a late lunch~

here at AssMan Laboratories, we group our asses into different classifications (assifications?) taking shape, size, perkiness, heft and movement, overall circumference and total surface area, hip-to-waist ratio, can-you-see-it-from-the-front-bility, does-it-disappear-when-they-stand-up-ability (highly advanced specialization here), and smackability (if applicable) into account in our genus grouping. unfortunately, evnne as a /whole/ don't have a lot of meat but the members who have it HAVE IT (when they aren't hiding it.)

these findings are backed by dozens of hours of research and limit testing.
1. keita
2. hanbin
3. seungeon
4. yunseo
5. munjun
6. leejeong

hmmmm... can't say i have a particular combo rotting my brain from the inside out, but i think i always will be hung up on keeho/jiung because it's so FRAUGHT. like..... /something/ /happened/ between them and, whatever it is, keeho's fine with it (or has at least done his part in terms of attempting to apologize) but jiung's still kinda walking on eggshells and the dynamic is so DELICIOUS. total tinhat theory but i'm convinced they fucked around a while back (added theory: keeho topped) and jiung kinda hates that it was good and kind of won't LET himself want it (and more) again, which is why he's always shying away from keeho's touch. meanwhile, keeho's having a blast regardless. like, it was just another body for him. he doesn't care. and i'm literally novelizing my thesis rn. please anticipate.

i've got a pu pu platter of ideas:
- cry wolf 2: where hunting hound munjun comes back to the enclosure and catches the two in the act and he and keita literally fight over yunseo and it turns into double pen
- fashion mag au: haven't decided on a group yet, but a supermodel and a makeup artist walk into a changing room...
- beach vacay au: summer's coming and i want to write more hot guys hotting hottily at the beach
- i still have this church sleepaway camp au where jeonghyeon wakes up with a vagina and thinks it's a trick of the devil but then seungeon gives him a hands on demonstration that it's a gift from god
- i haven't finished watching it yet but the P_riends with keeho and jiung unlocked something feral in me so i have to write it out

ahhh thank you thank you~~ i don't have any plans to give up on writing any time soon~~~ as of right now, i don't have any plans to continue Read It At The Beach as a series. i feel like what it is as a narrative has pretty much been wrapped up (other than..... idk idk... some 'this is my last day here at the beach, i leave tomorrow morning' break-up sex sort of thing but that is just an idea and definitely isn't on my wip list atm)

in a similar vein, i'm still hanging on to this Hui/Jinhyuk/Siyun (from NOWADAYS) au that's heavily inspired by the movie Challengers where established tennis pro Hui, after his doubles partner Kino suddenly leaves the industry, accidentally gives rising doubles partners Jinhyuk and Siyun too much of his attention on the court and they take it and run with it and draw him deep into this fraught whirlpool of sexual tension off of the court that eventually resolves into a threesome or four. but this is a big idea that definitely needs to be, like, 40k words long but, currently, i am terribly allergic to anything over 10k right now so i don't know if i will ever get around to this. but just know that i'm thinking about it, at the very least.

it's..... a possibility. tbh, the idea was originally for BND featuring Jaehyun/Riwoo, Taesan/Riwoo. the seunghan drama with riize is only like 40% of the reason why i hid the fic. the other 60% was because people couldn't respect boundaries and were rudely demanding updates even when i openly requested that they stop. (like, it still blows my mind that this is how readers generally treat the people they want things from. wild.) yes, it's been months since i hid it, but i can also write what i want to when i want to. plus, the seunghan hiatus is still ongoing and with this lengthy lack of (official) news, i'm running out of hope that it will be positively resolved any time soon.

all of that aside, if i do bring the idea back, it will probably be significantly changed regardless of whether i keep it for riize or not.