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marko15 · 2y

If you don't mind me asking, how did you realize you were trans?

LONG ONE, click to read the full thing!

Basically! I had the question "am I trans?" pop up in my head like every month for a few years, and I always answered "no" - I kinda like, couldn't wrap my head around being called "she" in sentences since I'd always instantly correct anyone who thought I was a girl IRL (I have long hair, long haired guys know how that is)

But I'd always avoided masculinity, I didn't like being called a "man" or associated with that, and I would always lean feminine towards stuff, or at least androgynous. I would prefer Queen or Princess over King/Prince, for example. Or I'd commission art of Wingu with boobs lol. And like, that alone isn't trans specific, gender expression is a Fuck and I was very content with being a very feminine guy for a long time.

But in late 2021, something was starting to kinda... yearn? Something in me was just. wanting a change. I redesigned Wingu's outfit like twice that leaned more and more androgynous, the second redesign being her blue sweater and stuff. And then privately I was like "god I wanna give him boobs by default. I can do that and be a guy right" and a friend of mine said "hm, have you thought of he/him girls existing" and it exploded my brain on my 21st birthday. Like I got called "ma'am" and "miss" for the first time without resisting and I was like. Holy Shit.

So I came out as a he/him girl, I felt so much euphoria being called feminine terms, and by the middle of December I was straight up a she/her girl. So many things, like my consistency in making my female OCs lesbians/bi, make a LOT more sense now realizing I was an egg for so long. And apparently it was semi-obvious to those close to me lkdfgjlkgfhjkgf

So yeah! kind of an accidental realization that I'm glad I stumbled into!! I've felt so fuckin' happy with myself ever since I came out as trans and swapped my fursona to cow. <3

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