Thank you for such kind words, and I'm sorry you have to feel like you need to hold back. I've gotten a few messages like this already and I'm never really sure how to respond correctly without sounding preachy.

It is difficult to put into precise words, but... I've always been this way. Before computers, I'd draw and write with pencils, crayons, markers; lined paper, notepads, little scraps of paper. I grew up engrossed in books, comics, video games and made-up worlds that would pass off as Dark Fiction in today's time.

As stupid and pretentious it might sound, the best way to describe it is that I've always had a fierce type of Integrity lol. I was always undaunted by people's thoughts and opinions. I never followed a Crowd, and never fell for groupthink or cared about what my peers thought. I know this sounds so self-important because I'm kinda cringing typing it this way, but I promise that's not the case ahaha. King has told me that she sometimes likes how stubborn I am (emphasizing sometimes wahaha)

With the invention of da Web, it was easier than ever for a young Grail to expand her creative outlet. I remember joining deviantArt, a bunch of forums and browsing endless fansites full of lemon fics. It was just the norm back then! And it was fun, freeing, and felt much more simpler to just enjoy what you enjoy!

I understand that's hard nowadays, and to be frank, I am a HUGE advocate for anyone wanting to draw and create. To me, technical skill is secondary. People get way to comfortable being mean and spreading misery online now. When I see someone with any type of passion, I immediately think to myself, "How inspiring! Incredible and admirable," and I am even further determined to just have fun and not sweat the small stuff.

The one important thing to keep in mind is that no matter what, you will never, ever please everyone. There are going to be people who will just not like your work (your ethic, morals, your style, how you color, how you line, how you write, how you use words, whatever). And that is OK!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is normal. What you need to focus on is your friends, other people who build you up instead of knocking you down.

I consider myself very lucky because I have such kind friends and peers. King is my biggest inspiration, she's perfect to me in every way and has helped build me up. (She is my pilot and I am a big mech that she built piece by piece with love and nurturing) So with her, I feel like I could do anything.

But yeah... Ahhh... I also feel like I was just used to "Dark" and "Sexy" stuff before it even appeared online so I wasn't Shocked and Grossed Out when I saw inuyasha hentai on a fansite in like 2003.

I certainly hope that makes sense... I'm not so well with words ahaha.