Hi love, Thank you for sending this in and asking me. Writing is tough, isn't it? Riddled with so much potential but can cause so much insecurity or anxiety that the fear of that potential never being reached consumes us. It can become a cycle.

For you, as a new writer who is afraid, I would suggest trusting in your idea. You're new, you're exploring things you've never done before, lending a type of novice sense or aura to your writing. And it's your writing and your ideas so far that have been gaining attention because people like them. They're authentically yours and your interpretation of those ideas is yours. No one is able to take that away from you.

Your voice, ideas, creativity all belongs to you. It's hard to ignore the pressure when you feel that everything is going well, but I would encourage you to allow it to slip to the back of your mind, dim the big voice that doubts you and shrink it into a small space. Focus on the story you want to tell. Because writing, at its core, is telling a story. The story you want to tell and how, has nothing to do with those who read it. The readers are there for the ride, but it's a ride in which you steer, direct, create and that can only come from you.

If you allow yourself to fall into self-doubt and insecurity, you'll only convince yourself that it won't be good before even trying. Therefore, stopping yourself from writing. I struggle with this very much until the point that I don't even try. Yet, I have to tell myself that without writing it, I'll never know how it turns out. It helps mostly, but fear is a tricky thing. Because writers care about their stories and want them to do well.

In the face of that fear or worry, keep trying and even if it doesn't do as well as you'd like, know that you gave it your all. That what you've written is something you can be proud of. And if you're proud of it, if you've given everything you can and wrote it to the best of your ability, as of right now, then nothing anyone will say or do will take that away from you. You'll no longer care about it living up to the hype because it lived up to your expectations and you were able to do everything and express everything that you wanted. So focus on you, focus on what you'd like to do, focus on the story you'd like to tell and don't think of anything else.

I think you're doing great already and your ideas, your thoughts have brought you this far, so don't allow the darker thoughts to consume something that has been going well. And if you're worried about your writing or ideas, you can always seek advice, get a second opinion and learn more about writing to develop your skills. Doing so may help you feel more comfortable with writing overall. Also, have fun. As long as you're having fun, nothing else matters.

I'll leave you with a quote I read before writing:

“The worst thing you do write is better than the best thing you don't write."

Hi bby! 😊 I'm so sorry for getting to this later than planned. Thank you for your patience with me.

I'm still liking your posts, huh? lol I'll reply to some of them soon then. I'm glad you're okay with gaining followers, and it isn't as daunting as it seemed at first. Therapy is definitely helpful, and it's great that you could talk this through with your therapist and came to a solution that worked best for you. That's wonderful, hun. I'm proud of you, truly.

Life has been a bit rough, actually. There have been highlights, though! Since it is my birthday month, I've been out and this past Saturday I saw Avatar The Last Airbender live in concert with an orchestra and vocalists. It was amazing!!!!!! 🔥🔥🔥 I definitely recommend going if you loved the show and the music in it.

I'm happy that your albums reached you safely, and I remember your PCs and everything from the precious ask. I love that you're such an avid PC collector. so opposite of me. But it's a pretty cool hobby, so have fun and get those PCs!

Um.... gotten off? Is this what I think it is? I haven't heard of the game. My gaming has been lacking lately outside of genshin. I don't have time for much else :( I love that you have a new game that you can enjoy in...multiple ways. lol

I didn't watch much of Chan's live. I'm working through it slowly as I do with all of their lives. I can't sit and watch them straight through since theres too much to do, so I watch them in parts. I adore their bday lives as well! It's always so much fun and silly antics.

Are you still writing today? I'm so interested in reading your works, actually. I love how happy you are about finishing the smut lol but I feel you on that cause sometimes you want to be done with it. Smut can be easy and difficult, it really depends. but now you're finished!! 🎉🥳

For smut, I like desperate, whiny subs, begging, sobbing, all of that. so go for it. Or write it some other time. Whatever you choose to do, I'm sure it's great!

Your secrets are always safe with me lol Tell me when you can, and if you don't want to, that's alright, okay? You don't have to talk about anything you're uncomfy with, bby. I'm just happy to see your messages. They really light up my days, improving my moods. I adore your energy so much. I love you and always miss you. I hope you're having a wonderful week, and that life continues to treat you well 🤍

Hi bby! You called me Nar Nar? NAR NAR?!!!!! 🧐 who are you? only one person used to call me that. Is that you!? I love that nickname along with Narsie! ASKNSDKNKDJNKJ So cute 😊

And then you know about my Moon names too? Anon, who are you? lol they're not patreon tiers, but my group chats!! Moonshine was a HF casual chat that I recently closed this past Saturday. I removed everyone. Gold, Azure, Emerald, and Scarlet Moons are chats for my fic updates, with Gold Moon receiving every written work that I've created. Most people who have joined have picked Gold Moons. I'm grateful to have them. Such amazing people. 🥰 Thank you for asking! 🤍

You're welcome, love. I'm glad they seemed to help, if only a little.

I never want to be left behind. It always seemed lonelier to me. I always tell my friends that I have to go first. I would be too devastated when mourning for them, so I have to go. Of course, they argue me down saying I need to live longer than them lol and the cycle repeats. Grief is distinct. There's nothing quite like it. It's such a huge, all-encompassing feeling that affects you mentally and physically. It's so tough to learn to live with it. I don't think it ever truly goes away, not really, but it lessens with time. And you're right; we experience hurt because we had the courage to love them. We're all pretty brave by taking that risk to experience pain, to embrace the hurt/grief. It really takes a lot of courage, and those who are willing to do so have many great experiences because of it.

'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
– Alfred Tennyson

Thank you, bby 🤍 I'm glad I got to meet her too! Though brief, I think it was needed at the time and it helped me in many ways. I'ms sure your mom will come to visit you as well, mothers can't seem to stay away from their babies for too long. But I don't want you to think about this right now. Stay in the present with her, okay? Allow the future to wither away and be present. There's time to think of this later when the time comes.

I hope you have a lovely night/day as well hun. And that life, though funny with its humor, treats you well; that life surrounds you in an abundance of love from family and friends; that life is kinder even when it can seem so cruel. Keep going babe. You're stronger than you think. Thank you for sharing this with me. Stay precious ִֶָ☾. ·