https://archiveofourown.org/works/45111127/chapters/113482090 look. i don't know if you've read this fic or not but let me tell you it's an absolute fucking masterpiece of a fic that left me crying and in shambles at the end (emotionally) despite having a good ending. i've had that fic open in my tab for two weeks bc i've been trying to leave a comment on it but genuinely no words can do me justice . i read that whole thing in a day i swear i went crazy I STILL FEEL CRAZY if you haven't read it please read it. and if you have please share thoughts. okay ramble over sorry