oh gosh.... they were very young when they found it out and definitely not thinking about kids yet so i think beomgyu's initial reaction was to be like meh this isn't that big a deal!! and soobin was heartbroken but hid it for beomgyu's sake... and then over time the sadness sunk in and beomgyu started crying at night and their sex life went seriously downhill because he developed the inadequacy feelings that you hear him talk about in chapter two... i think they've never really truly sat down and talked to each other about how much they Do care about it and how hard it really is for both of them because soobin's reaction these days is to always default to saying whatever he can to try to make beomgyu feel better (and to know that his infertility will never affect how much soobin loves him, because that is completely true) but sometimes that kind of results in him sort of glossing over the roughness of beomgyu's feelings, and beomgyu tries to act like it doesn't bother him as much as possible until it spills out at emotional times when he isn't really capable of having a Theraputic Talk about it. i mean both of them also DO know that beomgyu's infertility is not necessarily a lifelong problem, as it's tied to his condition it is hypothetically possible if not probable that getting his condition properly managed would result in improvements to his fertility, but they're just so deep in a world where beomgyu's condition has absolutely no chance of getting treated that beomgyu especially is unwilling to get his hopes up on that front and soobin only really hangs onto it as an abstract flicker of hope

Hmmmmm i don't really have a ton of dating advice as its been a while since ive been in the dating world but i think to some extent if you're on the apps there are ways to kind of... screen people for their intentions, i mean you can literally ask someone if they're looking for something casual or something a bit more and even if it's awkward to ask that it's probably worth it if you're struggling with mismatched intentions.... please don't let it get you down, you're at an age where yes people are probably starting to pair off but people will also have breakups and things won't work out for many of them and everyone has their own struggles in dating that you just might not be seeing! also like i said im not on the apps but most people i know who are dating men have had the most success on hinge lol so that would be the app of choice