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anon ❀ · 3d
You made me completely addicted to F1 😭 I have widgets ready for the next season and I never do widgets!! (thank you tho, I am really excited)
anon ❀ · 5d
Hi omg im new and my friend recommended me vegas three times and I feel like a brand new woman who are you and how do you write like that
anon ❀ · 4d
Beomgyu missing Soobin so much really gives a whole new meaning to "nothing less, nothing more". I reread it last night and it just hit differently after seeing Beomgyu cry on his live. It was obviously a lot of things pent up and he just broke down, but his bond with Soobin is really something. He relies on Soobin a lot.
anon ❀ · 5d
did you see the new childhood pics hiyyih posted? Kai got so much of his looks from his dad lmao
anon ❀ · 12d
"kai is literally drooling and taehyun laughs at him". Tyun is just so perfect, I can understand how Kai can just drool while he's watching Taehyun underneath him with his little pink cock flopping around. I'm just picturing Taehyun underneath him giggling while getting pounded, and he's wearing his cute little yellow fluffy sweater and nothing else.
anon ❀ · 11d
https://x.com/jeiiyhue/status/1866793625843372117?t=JEstbMSPs1669Y6qAeHc9Q&s=19
Yeonjun loves Kai's body so much
anon ❀ · 6d
i found you on ao3 a few days ago and WOW, did not expect you to be a bottom taehyun enthusiast 😭😭 it’s not bad at all, i was just surprised to see a big writer like urself be into bottom taehyun, thanks for that 💗
anon ❀ · 12d
I'm SO glad the boys are getting a well deserved break. Even if it's just for a month, it's well deserved.
anon ❀ · 12d
reread antichrist because obviously, BUT ever since this second read i love the argument that yeonbin have a few times! the one where soobin wants beomgyu to have nothing to do with the ritual and yeonjun is upset over for many things, especially where their arguing in the dance room and yeonjun retorts that he’s just happy to have something shiny and new, nothing damaged like the rest of them…that literally sent shivers down my spine…and i LOVE that they saw taehyun as essentially “weaker” because he always had the worst time with the ritual but in reality his night was the worst. holy…also i’m so happy your a bottom taehyun truther, lol, thank you for writing such compelling and amazing stories!! Just started ur F1 fic and I love it so much!!
anon ❀ · 13d
I recently read and then reread Antichrist, and I have a thought that may be absolutely insane. Is there a chance the demon knew that Beomgyu could be a threat to it? I understand that Soobin’s scared because he feels so guilty for hurting his partners, which leads to him fearing that loving someone else will only end him hurting them. But could the demon have also been scared, adding to Soobin’s fear?
It’s repeatedly said that Beomgyu is different from the others. He’s so curious and wants answers so he can be part of the group, but also because things need to make sense for him to understand. He questions everything more than everyone else did and doesn’t stop questioning or looking into it, even when he’s shot down over and over again. So, yeah, Soobin has his guilt and fear, but what if the demon fueled that fear as well? It literally hates Beomgyu touching the book, and I just don’t fully think it’s because Beomgyu was “pure.” Beomgyu had clear intent on learning and destroying the thing hurting his boyfriends, doing literally anything it takes in the end. He’s a threat when it comes to all of it. Could the demon have possibly seen that kind of like it did when Kai would mess up the ritual?
I don’t think the demon could stop Soobin from loving Beomgyu, because that’s just something entirely else, but I think fear can drive people apart. Fear and guilt tried to drive them apart, but in the end, it didn’t stick. So, yeah, this is a crazy thought and I don’t know if you’ve talked about anything like this, but this was my insane thought.
yes you're onto something! im trying to rewind my brain back to when i wrote the story to remember my thought processes back then but the demon absolutely knows beomgyu is a threat to it, and this absolutely trickles into soobin's complicated feelings about beomgyu -- beomgyu is the only one of the group who hasn't done the ritual, doesn't have the scar, is "pure" in that way and is able to actually damage the ritual materials in a way that none of the 4 who have accepted the demon into their bodies are able to. Soobin feels the demon's fear in all those moments where they're like... experimenting with the book to see what Beomgyu can do to it, and that's why he tells beomgyu he's feeling so desperately terrified that beomgyu might hurt the book. like you said, beomgyu's ability to damage the ritual comes from him being untouched by it, but his desire to damage it is simply a matter of his personality and his passion for these boys and his stubborn need to win out over it and understand it and defeat it -- all that is rolled into why the forces soobin to act the way he does whenever beomgyu starts getting close to hurting the ritual. I wouldn't go so far as to say that the demon's fear and loathing of beomgyu trickles into soobin's conscious everyday thoughts about him, but it's a bit hard to distinguish soobin's feelings from the rest of the things going on in his body, isn't it? so yeah, if there's this creature inside him that loathes and fears and hates beomgyu, and soobin can feel it looming closer and closer to the surface inside him, and his body is getting more and more vulnerable to its attempts to seize control, of Course those feelings have a complicated weight on the way the conscious soobin feels so complicatedly about beomgyu in so many ways. Soobin loves beomgyu just because he loves him - he knows right from the start that beomgyu is so right for him, that he's so beautiful, that he's so vibrant and joyful and just right for him and his other boyfriends, he wants him so bad but he knows he shouldn't have him, that having him will only destroy him, and then the monster inside him starts figuring out that beomgyu is the only real threat there is and it almost hurts beomgyu [in the failed ritual in ch 10] and you can only imagine how devastating that was for soobin internally to know the things his body is capable of doing to beomgyu when he loses control, but at that point it's far too late for soobin to give up loving beomgyu and he refuses to give into the guilt and withdraw from him anymore so all there is to do is try to win before the monster takes over.
there's a reason ive never written a soob pov side story and probably never will - soobin is an internal disaster for the entire story and i wonder how present the demon is in his brain even without him being aware of it... its something i dont really want to clear up, mystery-wise hahaha
anon ❀ · 14d
was reading the acre before us and went to your profile only to realize you've written multiple of my favorite fics !!! maybe you've heard this a million times and it's lost all meaning by now but I truly love your writing. the pacing of your stories is perfect and keeps me incredibly engaged and on top of that the characters are super realistic in what they say/do. like they actually speak and operate like real people would in their situations and I appreciate that so much. you are such a talented writer and I truly appreciate your presence in this fandom. thank you so much and I hope you've had an amazing day <3
anon ❀ · 13d
Birdy, I'm really in my anti-christ tyunning feels lately. What are they up to right now?
anon ❀ · 14d
that yeonkai clip with yeonjun basically undressing him has rewired my brain like hello??? the way he unties the tie??? i need help
anon ❀ · 14d
I loved it so much. I don’t know a lot yet because I am really really new to the sport but that p19 to p3 from Charles? Like wow. I’m sorry if I sound ignorant but I promise I will learn more and enjoy the sport a lot more next year.
Reallyyyy happy it got you to write 🥺 I will be happy to read the update whenever you post it 🥰
ahh charles really did have an absolutely incredible drive today, if you're new to the sport he's such a fabulous driver to pay attention to, not just bc hes a personal fave of my best friend lmao but also because he's a top 3 best driver out there rn and a fascinating character! You do not sound ignorant whatsoever im sure even jaded long term fans of this sport were impressed by him today sljfhskjhfdk and im so happy that you enjoyed watching!!
anon ❀ · 14d
Birdy hello, hope you are having a good weekend. Just wanted to let you know that because of your F1 fic today I watched the final race in Abu Dhabi and I can’t wait to learn more about the sport. Thank you for writing such amazing pieces of work, can’t wait to read more 🫂