BOP I WAS WRITING A LIL BEOMKAI FEM JUST FOR YOU (surprise~ i guess 🥹) BUT THEN I SWITCHED IT TO MY MOTHER LANGUAGE SO I COULD FINISH ASAP! the girls are in love and it's consequently angst... i'll try and translate it when i take the important classes i need to, so let me know if you would like to read it!!! i was planing on publish BUT i want you to read it first - bcuz i just love you this much & i'm happy you're back and (hopefully) doing well. i'm so so so happy you could write nd publish again; you have no idea how much i missed you're writing even tho i was rereading everything i could find endlessly... phew, TALKED A LOT, IM SORRY!

HI, sooo today is one of those days where i miss you AND i was wondering: "what our beomkai could do to make you happy enough to share ur thoughts here?" a live? when beomgyu's fidgeting gets worse and he would be playing non-stop with kai's pretty hands? maybe, they can be a duo on to do, in a day kai would be uncharacteristically clingy? a KISS Perhaps? an acidental kiss; kai wouldn’t mind at all and beomgyu would move away, slowly, shyly. smile playing on his lips And red painted ears…

what do you think? 🫵🏽 [sobbing]

i miss you so damn much, bop 😞 i've been thinking about you since monday and how you're my first and last writer... i wish i could read every single word you wrote for the first time again. i miss u and i hope you're doing fine! please eat well even if you just has some minutes to eat (but be careful!! hiccups sucks) drink lots of water and please please please take some rest. i'll be back on christmas to say hi or something~

ps.: beomkai isn't funny without you 😞 (i lied, they actually are. they're doing fine but i just Know they'd be doing better if you were here. send a signnnn)

do you remember that one tubatu live back in 2019? ("woke up it's last show" i think) i miss beomkai so much i needed to rewatch the whole live... beomgyu's just so clingy boyfriend and kai just allow him do anything he wants like man do something, this boys about to KISS YOU!

sigh, i love them so much. if you have the time to watch it, pls do!! there's a part where kai's giving a lil speech and the members (yeonbigyu) were trying to annoy him. mostly beomjun BUT BEOMGYU OMFG he's so tiny, bop i can't...

hello ><

its me again i hope you're fine and that i am not causing trouble sending you messages <3
I hope you're fine and that you had many beautifull days <3
I saved the yeonkai idea and i sent a prompt for healing fest and i might try to write the whole fic :D At least, i started some scenes but i stopped for a few days and somehow i am writing now a sookvi divorce fic? o.õ
But this sookvi fic has maaaaaaaaaany other ships bc my crazy mind just though about:

Beomgyu's dad HATES Kai's dad. They're coworkers and Kai's dad menaged to marry the woman Gyu's dad loved, so Gyu's dad ressents A LOT Kai's dad and that hate turned into pressure to Gyu be better than Kai, if Gyu is better than Kai, then his dad will love him. So Kai and Beomgyu were always rivals, at least, to Beomgyu.

Gyu were always tryng to archieve the best grades, but Kai was better on that and this fact were always reforced by his dad who didn't feel pride over his son. Gyu had many friends at school, while Kai didn't and he kind of made fun of Kai. Nothing bad like break bones or real bullying, but he didn't allow the other boys talk with Kai so he was really lonely.

At that time, as much as Beomgyu hates Kai he also felt sad over the lonely boy that were always kind to him. Kai once asked Gyu why he hated him so much and Gyu just didn't answer. So it begins their phase "i don't talk to you".

But that changed when a wild Kang taehyun moves to their school.
Beomgyu falls in love with Taehyun, but somehow Taehyun become Kai's first and betest friend. And as much as Bemgyu tries to seduce him, Taehyun just become his fuckbody and that is it. PS: Taehyun is aro ace. He enjoys sex, but if he create any sort of emotional bound with his peers, then he can't be with them.

They're highschoolers and Beomgyu is very popular, just as good at sports as Taehyun. Kai is the brightest kid in school along with Taehyun. So Taehyun tries to make Beomgyu and Kai be friends or act civil towards each other. A Kai seriously tries to make amends and tries to be charming and gentle, but all that makes beomgyu furious and when Kai cheats on games with Beomgyu, he is sure that Kai is a bad guy.
And it doesn't help that Kai become one of the prettiest people Beomgyu ever put his eyes in and that makes his hate grows. Kai is sure Gyu hates him and doesn't have a clue why, he guesses its bc he is just half korean.

So, one day, Gyu find Kai's diary at his backpack and finds that Kai is in love with a guy named Soobin. Sookai meet at a camp and Kai talks with Soobin by his email and cellphone. So Gyu makes a plan: seduce Soobin to hurt Kai. He kind of convince Taehyun to apply to a diferent camp, knowing that Kai would follow Tyun and Gyu and that happens.

At summer, Gyu meets Soobin and properly woo him before they go to uni. They become a couple and Soobin is head over heels over gyu and Bemgyu is kind of surprised how well he matches with Soobin. They're kind of soulmates. In their phase of hooking up, Beomgyu, Taehyun and Soobin have a menage. Its just for fun. And later Soobin and Beomgyu become an oficial couple, especially bc they turn into roommates at uni.

Kai finds about their relationship and suffers, but still is friends with Soobin, still loves him. Taehyun finds out about Kai's feelings for Soobin and confesses that he and Soobin once slept togheter, but he didn't know Kai's feelings that time. Kai is shaken but well, he trusts Tyun.

Soobin might be Beomgyu's own soulmate, he still in love with Taehyun and he is very frustrated bc couldn't convince Taehyun to become part of the couple. That's when Taehyun suspects Beomgyu's intentions with Soobin, but he won't act. So he kind of break his contact with Beomgyu for now, which makes Gyu pretty sad.

Beomgyu's dad is also very dissapointed on Beomgyu bc he couldn't brag about his own son at work bc Gyu didn't get a full schollarship. Yes, Beomgyu was accepted at a good uni but that isn't as good as Kai could get a full schollarship (that thing of free uni cousts) in that good uni and a half schollarship at another good uni.

At one night he gets drunk and meets kai and they fight bad, with punches and kicks and Beomgyu says that yeah, kai might be smart but in the end he would fuck Soobin and kai never would and that's how kai finds out that beomgyu's plan to seduce Soobin just to make kai hurt and Kai tries to talk to soobin about it, but Soobin doesn't trust Kai, he trusts his boyfriend and Sookai's friendship is a little ruined.

So Kai decides to take revenge on Beomgyu for that. See, Beomgyu needs desesperatly a vague on a music program that kai don't need, but kai applys to it and succeds on that vague leaving beomgyu furious especialy bc kai says "yes, you may be with soobin, but at least i will take care of this while you can't".

Later they fight again and both say how they hate each other. Some years goes as this. And then Gyu's dad is ilness and is almost dying but still acts all hatefull about Gyu and his coworker and Gyu finally has enough and he finally slips how his father made his life miserable and say all the things he did. Gyu is really sad. But eventually his father ask forgiviness and when he dies, Gyu and him are at better terms but Gyu questions what all he done.

For the funeral, all his family tag along and that means Gyu being close to his cousin Yeonjun. In all those years, Yeonjun always tried to take care of gyu and were always advising and eyeeing him so now he decides to move to gyu's city and helps him find some therapy bc boy you need it.

Yeonjun and Taehyun have a fling one night and Yeonjun meet the famous Hueining Kai and he kind of flirts with Kai too, wishing for a menage too bc our Yeonjunie is a horny dog and that freaks Kai out. Taehyun likes Yeonjun and its one of the rare fuck boys that later turns into his friendship group.

With Yeonjun and therapy, Beomgyu decides to come true to Soobin and tells why their relationship started, wishing that Soobin would undestand that he changed but Soobin breaks up with him bc he felt betrayed and he brook up a friendship that he really cared. And Soobin and Kai get closer again.

The problem is: Soobin is still in love with Beomgyu. Kai is still in love with Soobin and offers to be his boyfriend so Soobin could forget Beomgyu. And thats how their relationship began. And eventually they get married. Kai is in love with Soobin and Soobin now is in love with Kai too, but there is a part of him that still loves Beomgyu.

And one day Soobin and Beomgyu meet again. They decide to just become friends again behind kai's back. And they glue instantly, they match you know and all those feelings comes back, but they don't act. Kai finds out about their friendship and gets mad at Soobin. He feels insecure and Soobin says that kai must trust him and that is a tiny part of kai that want to proof to beomgyu that he won in the end so he allows that.

Beomgyu and Kai aren't on good terms and old hostility and teasings are semipresent in each interaction. Ant that silly part of Beomgyu that wants to win over Kai gets back and one day, after many drinks, Soobin and Beomgyu kiss and they fuck. Soobin gets mad at himself and says he wouldn't do that again, but it happens again and Kai finds out in the worst way possible and he leaves Soobin and goes straight to bar where Yeonjun is.

See, over the years Yeonjun and Taehyun become the "lets party and find cute guys to fuck" to each other, so Kai and Yeonjun met a lot. Kai knows that Yeonjun is Beomgyu's cousin and tried to never be too close to him, meanwhile Yeonjun is a flirter and had always a pick up line waiting for Kai even when Kai was with Soobin. Yeonjun meant that as something easy and teasing just to mess around and not actually having Kai at his bed but rather at his side laughting at a bad joke. Eventuallly Kai noticed that and even ranked Yeonjun's pick up lines and they were kind of colleagues. Sometimes they hang around in tiny mint chocolate dates before each intervention at taehyun's life like "boy, we know you want to build your body but CALM DOWN" or "we know you want a cat BUT YOU'RE ALLERGIC AS FUCK! YOUR RINNITIS", so they're kind of Taehyun's parents.

Yeonjun is a little sick of always just find someone to warm his bed and thats it. He wants a relationship but each date he has is crappier than the other. So when he sees Kai all sad and drinking he knows something is wrong and a thing lead to another and they fuck. Yeonjun is full conscient that Kai is using him to make Soobin suffer and he allows that bc he can't see Kai suffering. But what he doesn't expect is that the morning after bc Kai stays with him after sex, he cries at Yeonjun's arm and is vulnerable and yet he takes care of Yeonjun too. They cook a meal together, watch sappy movies and they even try to hold a buff Taehyun who wanted to beat Soobin's ass.

Kai and Soobin talk. Soobin gets furious at Kai after he fucked Yeonjun but it isn't like he didn't something bad. So they decide on have an open relationship. Soobin could fuck with Beomgyu and Kai with Yeonjun. But things doesn't work bc Kai and Beomgyu can't see each other and hold back their tongs and provoque each other. Beomgyu loves how angry Kai looks, he loves how he gets all read and he kind of feel proud of himself that he is the only thing in the world that make that man so angered, how only him can damge that perfect person. His therapy says he is obcessed with Kai and that he might have more feelings about him, but Beomgyu always says its not like that.
But apart that, Soogyu is having the better moments of their relationship bc now Soobin knows that Beomgyu loves him so so much and Beomgyu tries as best as he can to secure Soobin about his feelings. And Soobin feels so loved and when he is with Kai he is also so happy about that, that he tells all his thinkings and how glad that he also has huening kai in his live.

Kai always feels very sad when Soobin says how much he loves Beomgyu and how the best thing kai ever did to him was just allow him have Beomgyu, but Kai hides that from Soobin. That part he only shows with Yeonjun and Yeonjun also confides on Kai about his own strugles to find a relationship, and they get closer by the day. Eventually Yeonjun stop going to ballads to find himself someone bc now he has Kai and that's when Yeonjun realizes that he loves Kai and he knows he fucked up.

Yeonjun doesn't want to share Kai with Soobin. He knows that Kai feels sad about Soobin and Beomgyu's bound too, so why not let Soobin and Beomgyu be together while they both find happyness with each other. Its their first argument bc Kai is in love with Soobin but he doesn't denied that he has growning feelings for Yeonjun too. Yeonjun says he can't share Kai anymore and asks him to think and they break their arrangement.

Yeonjun and Huening Kai are devastated. But Kai goes to Soobin and inform him about that and says that it is only fair that Soobin breaks with Beomgyu now and Soobin does that. Sookai stay together like this for a month. Yeonjun goes back at going to parties, he is mad with Huening Kai and Taehyun is by Yeonjun's side so Kai is alone in this.

Meanwhile Beomgyu isn't dealing well with a life without Soobin and he blames Kai for it and one day he meets Yeonjun to drink since both are sad. He knows that Yeonjun fell for a "friend" but he doesn't know that this friend is Kai. So Beomgyu complains a lot about his misery and that is all kai's fault and Yeonjun says sorry bc it was actually him who couldn't share Kai and that he thought that Kai would leave Soobin to be with him.

And that's how Beomgyu notices that he is mad, jealous mad and he doesn't undestand But Yeonjun is sad and Beomgyu cares for him and doesn't act but brings the issue to theraphy.

Kai LOVES Soobin, its that kind of love that you got blind and Soobin is realy sad without Beomgyu, so he aks Soobin that maybe they could try a polly relationship with the 3 of them, if he and Beomgyu could solve their problems with each other and Soobin is so hopefull about that, and he arranges a meeting with Kai and Beomgyu.

At first, Soobin tries to mediate their interactions but Beomgyu and Kai decides that is better if they talk by themselves. And talk they did, but since they're them, they fight each other. Beomgyu is still having trouble with something his therapist said: he is in love with Huening Kai. Always was pinning but that pressure to be superior than Kai to get aprovation from his dad made the feeling sour.

While they were punching and hurting each other, throwing all the things they did to hurt each other and how Kai always wanted to be friends with Gyu, how he always though Gyu was cool and that he cheated bc he didn't look so bad and how Gyu always made Kai feels like crap and insecure and the worst, Beomgyu kiss Kai and he realizes the truth: yeah, he loves this man but he fucked up this man.

Kai and Beomgyu have hate sex and Kai lets gyu fuck him and Gyu in the end aks forgiveness and Kai forgives him, but he also realizes that he doesn't want beomgyu on his life. He realizes what he is doing for someone that would never make the same sacrificies to him bc Kai knows Soobin needs beomgyu more than what he needs Kai. With Soobin, Kai was never sure of anything, but with Yeonjun he was bc Yeonjun make sure that Kai felt welcomed.

So Kai make a decision: he will leave Soobin to Beomgyu. And he made Beomgyu promise that he would never try to reach kai again. That everything they had stopped for good now. And Beomgyu realizes that he can't fight for Kai bc they hurt each other that much.

Kai aks for divorce and Soobin doesn't take it well, they fuck for the last time, they talk about not breaking up but Kai made his mind. This is the scene i am writing right now and i plan to write a little scene for Soogyuu (even if it isn't my favorite ship), that one talk for beomkai and a last one for yeonkai <3

WHY I ALWAYS GO WITH THE MOST LONG PLOT EVER SORRY ABOUT ALL THAT???