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be careful who u let in ur circle. *karma anon isn't a random hater because of discourse. they r someone u know well. they smile in ur face but talk so much shit behind ur back. thats why they came here to be anon. sorry im here anon also but im just not strong enough for the hate that would come with all this. but i just cant sit back and say nothing when i know they claim to be ur friend but are not at all. they even were laughing about how you "claimed" it wasnt gonna affect u but they knew it would. that u said they may be able to fool people and u were one of the people they fooled. this is their words not mine. just be careful
Nice to see that karma is eating your ass up.
ive got lots of people who love me and wish for my health, ppl who r helping me get the care i need regarding my issues, and all of them have seen me for exactly who i am, and still decided to stick by me.
u? ure a freak. uve got evil in you, and even though u might be good at hiding it, most people will notice one day. theyll see u for the freak shit u hide inside ur corroded mind, and theyll leave u. they will. and even if u manage to hold on to some of them by parading a fake persona around and pretending ure a good person, even if some of them wont ever notice, ull know. in ur heart of hearts, ull know what u are. u wish for people to get sick because of silly online discourse. bc of some yaoi. or, worse, bc they disagreed with the things ur favourite writer put on the internet.
u know its wrong to think this way, thats why u hide behind anon. u ticked that box before sending this message because u know ure a freak, u know its not right to do it, and that ppl will boil u for it, but u did it anyway. and u know what the real issue is? it truly means nothing to me. yea u influenced my life for the 5 minutes i took to type up this reply, but in another 5 ill move on and only remember this message superficially, it wont mean anything to me in the long run.
but u? ull stay like that. a freak ass bitch who goes thru life pretending to be happy, but not really tasting any of that joy because ure too disconnected from normalcy. itll show, just wait. one day ull wake up and realise that freak shit uve got in ur mind has seeped into ur real life, and ull be sorry u wasted so much of ur time being genuinely hateful. good luck :-)
The conversations that have happened here today have been so healing 💕 I too have gone through some serious ups and downs in my capacity and ability to Work at a Job in the last several years, and it's been so difficult to learn to listen to my body and my mind and advocate for what I KNOW is really best for me when everyone around me is always urging me to do more, try harder, don't be lazy, don't be irresponsible. What's actually irresponsible is damaging myself long-term by pushing myself to my absolute maximum now so that it looks like I'm "being responsible" in the short term. Finding balance is still a work in progress, and I'm coming to terms with the idea that my personal and financial situation may never allow me to find that "perfect" balance. So I've been finding and cultivating pockets of restoration and peace within the bounds of what I can do, and it's always so amazing to see how the more I intentionally allow myself to have softness and easiness in my life, the stronger and healthier my life becomes. Some people thrive on pushing themselves to their limits and chasing everything with intensity. Some of us thrive when we stop and choose to see the small things already around us as beautiful and precious. There are so many, many ways to be! (And sometimes, there are times in life to be one way and times in life to be another way, and even if you used to live one way before, it's ok to live a different way now, and maybe even live differently again in the future! You always deserve to live in the way that will allow you to thrive and will allow you to be YOU, whatever that looks like!)
I'm wishing you luck, and really admiring your strength to know yourself and know what's best for yourself! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and wisdom with all of us 🩷
╯︿╰ my lovely anon . ,..,
right . ,. i think for most people , they believe that those who dont live life the same as them are doing it because of a lack of care , or an unwillingness to Be Normal , but obviously it cudnt be further from the truth . its the fact that We Care that makes us take thigns slowly , because otherwise , things wouldnt turn out well at all .. im glad ure steadily working on finding a balance :-)
and ure so right about this , many of use go through periods in our lives due to outside and Inside circumstances when we're Less productive or More productive , and thats "normal" for all people , but can be more severe for those of us who may not be Built for .. the more strenuous .. parts of modern society . sometimes i think of simpler times , when work was more linear , when it wud feed the active part of ur brain with results much faster , much more directly .. but alas we have to work for numbers on a screen now as opposed to tilling our own soil lfmao . pros and cons to both ofc ..
i wish u luck as well !!!!! we are holding spectral hands as we walk believe u me (*  ̄3)(ε ̄ *)
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yooooooo u broke the 1k sound barrier how do u do it D:
thank u and anons for sharing your stories ! i cried when i read them and i’m crying as i write this ! i’ve been struggling with my mental health for as long as i remember and sometimes i feel like i’m alone in this . thank u for reminding me that it’s not true <3 let’s just go at own pace and be happi !
anons and mofu.. we dont know each other but i hope u kno its So comforting to know that there are other ppl who share the opinions/struggles as me . ive always been called lazy or slow because my best was lower than what people would expect , that i could feel there was something Up with me but didnt know how to communicate that to others . or u know. sometimes things that are easy to others are hard to you, and vice versa, and i think many people struggle to understand this in a way ... not out of malice but concern , maybe .
im very very happy that u dont let it bother u anymore .. being called lazy andthe such, its so easy tp ping pong between "this is me i dont Care what u say . i know me best" and "but i should be x y z things and its not working out and it stresses me out"
Umm i truly dont have anything else to say i just want everyone to kno that knowing what is "Wrong" with urself or not . its ok if youre built a little different , if ur life looks different from what others think it should, even if sometimes it doesnt look like its ok
oh this is so sweet ..., im so glad u found some comfort in us , its always so healing to know there are others struggling with the exact same thing u are , and they are still putting one foot in front of the other despite their difficulties (ง •_•)ง
to be honest ive been called lazy all my life , uncaring , unwilling to put effort into anything .. ive always had to struggle with peoples perception of me , and how i could ever find peace in a world that moves so quickly while i rest . i think with time i got used to it , but its not easy , and even i sometimes look at others and wonder what couldve been if i had just mustered the strength to do more when i gave up
but then i think it couldve been worse .. how do i put it .. people tend to react negatively when theyre put under a large amount of stress , which is why usually drastic measures are taken at a time when they feel like theyre suffocating , like theres no other way out so to speak .. and objectively speaking , i know that if i tried to lead the same life my peers are , i would not last very long . i know this from experience , and while i also know that ive reached the Other extreme now , im confident that i made the right choices back then .. to stop .. to take breaks .. to be more gentle with myself
im very lucky that i can listen to my mind when it asks for these breaks , most cannot , and thats how many meet their end really .. im a unique case i think , which is why i think that while not everyone cud afford to just Stop Working for a while , its important to at least make the most of ur choices in that circumstance .. work if u must , if theres no other way , but try to find Some Things that can offer u some peace , like a routine thats yours alone that u dont share with anyone else , something that gives u some sense of ownership over ur life, that feels purposeful for u alone ..
and yes , as u said , theres nothing wrong with being built differently ( ̄y▽, ̄)╭ ive come to realise that what others call "real life" or a "normal life" looks different for everyone , and mine just happens to be like that , and even as i try to improve it , i dont hate it .. and myself , for simply needing to go at a slower pace . anything to keep us living longer is worth it in my eyes !
love u anon .. <3
Hihi!!! I wanted to say I really resonated with what you said about workforce life :( I just wanna let you know you're not alone on that. I hope you don't feel guilty or ashamed. Life is too fast and too crazy for gentle souls (I'm intuitively picking up just from your response that that could be the case????)
I had a maybe not so similar experience where I worked in a foreign country (Japan) and honestly it wasn't what I thought it was going to be... no I didn't think it would be all anime and titties, but like... they really crush individuality and authenticity and it crushed my soul. Needless to say my mental health suffered and it was the darkest time of my life, and I only somewhat recently moved back to my original country a few months ago. I'm still recovering mentally, and physically now too because I think I gave myself a slipped disc doing yoga not so long ago so meh 😭 but it's hard to be in the workforce of this world. Honestly, anywhere really. I think I want to work for myself but I'm still trying to figure out what I'm going to do with that. I have another friend with a similar experience. She can't work in the workforce so she does a lot of different artworks and hand made stuff and she sells them. It took her years to figure it out though. So what I wanna say is, you're not alone in this. This world fucking sucks and it's too much for people who become overwhelmed so easily and who feel so deeply. It's too much for us who require that slow attentiveness and authenticity and care, when we live in a society that constantly tells you to go go go. To keep moving forward without stopping. I innerstand you, friend.
I would want to recommend you some books or some information about this kind of thing but.. I don't know you that well to know if it would be useful at all ^^" anygays yes I see you, I hear you 💙
ohhhh thank u for talking to me about this !!
i feel bad that u resonate with how i feel .. but im glad to know ure on the mend as well :-) i think .. well .. this is a serious discussion that wud take hours to really dig into properly but overall i think mental health is overlooked a lot , even as we shift into a world that seems more "welcoming" to people like us , it still feels .. superficial
to me .. my mental issues .. the struggles that i have , these are not things that are easily fixed by simply Trying to be happy , or bruteforcing my way into a "normal" life .. like u said , when ur mental health takes a toll , it takes a long time to build it back up , and sometimes u have to carry pieces of it with u everywhere that just wont fit in anymore .. and i think . a lot of people , even our generation , they see mental health as this .. this thing that can sometimes be annoying , but overall benign .. it isnt benign at all .. for some of us , it seeps into everything , it weakens our physical health ..
theres a reason they say u need a healthy body And a healthy mind . and .. if my experience with .. the ways i tried to "cure" this mental state of mine is anything to go by , ive found that sometimes .. sometimes things are just too difficult to try to work through .. the workplace stuff , i understand ur friend very well .. it takes a while to figure out what u can possibly do , if anything , to create a life for urself that wont drive u to drastic measures ..
its very serious .. its always been serious , and i wish more people understood that if we could , we would .. i dont think anyone wants to rot at home , to not contribute to society .. theres peace and tranquility in that unity, in knowing that u are part of something bigger and u are doing ur part , and when u cannot do these things , it adds onto that stress .. it adds this sense of inadequacy , like people are always judging u.. but .. ive learned to live with that , and to put my own wellbeing first .. i dont realyl mind if people think im lazy anymore .. i think we each have our own paths to follow , and theres no shame in walking slower than most , because we all reach the same destination in the end : -)
anyway sorry for talking ur ears off , i am really glad that u were able to go back home and that ure working on things for yourself .. i think we can do it , both u and me , we can be happy , so i wish u the best on ur journey as well !!! thank u ; 3; kisses u tenderly
Hi dear crush for someone who has similar deficiencies and medical background, here are some (unsolicited) advices!
1. Buy the !!cheapest vitamins on the market cuz there is no difference (besides iron).
2. Iron makes you constipated AF and may give you weird poo and abdominal discomfort. So take it with a big dose of Vitamin C. Ask the pharma person for gentle formula (but some are really expensive). So just take vitamin C and fibre regularly!
3. You probably know already, but iron is rich in most animal products (blood, liver, red meat), and B12 doesn't exist in vegetables! So probably eating too much vegies won't help much ...being a vampire might!
4. You can also get injections for B12 and iron infusions, I'm not sure how medicare in your country work but it could be an alternative!
Ok back to reading the new update 🫠🫠
hello my dear anon !!! thank u for the info, its very detailed and it helps a lot !!!
i actually did take some cheaper ones before, but the ones prescribed by this doctor have a much higher dosage of iron in them , as well as the iron itself being sucrosomial , so the effects shud be more visible and quicker now !! i have the dosage for a whole month , and i was also prescribed vitamin c , probiotics and royal jelly to help with my appetite , thats why it all cost me an arm and a leg ≡[。。]≡
so what ure saying is veggies are useless . . . i knew it . .. . . WELL the diet ive been put on consists of kale, red meat, fish , spinch .. beans .. erm .. i forget .. its all on a list ..
i did buy iv b12 last week , that Also cost me an arm and a leg !! Interesting !!! after i get more blood tests done , we'll see if i need to take them intravenously or not : -) i just cant go yet because im a bit too weak and i Cannot go through another day like saturday cus ill DIE !!!!!! probably not but ill FEEL like im dying ! so im waiting a few days .. maybe a week ..
thank u my sweet . how nice of u to help . kisses u
hey I hope you're hanging in there!! I'm just kinda curious pls answer at your own discretion, but do u have a job or are you a student? I know you're an adult (well, if you're not, that would be not good, so I'll assume you are) so I was just wondering!
HELLO thank u i am !!!! also i love to drop my own lore all the time dw at all if a question is too much i wont answer it but u can always ask i really dont mind ( ̄y▽, ̄)╭
i actually went to law school for a year and then dropped out ! told myself id go back but as we can all see , that never happened !! good thing tho , i doubt i wudve been a good attorney .. minds too full of Yaoi nowadays ..
work wise ive been steadily working since i turned 18 !! i had a lil part time job before that , but i did work for years and years afterwards !!! i worked customer support , i did a small sales gig , i even worked online as a streamer for a while !! (got partner and all .. heh ..) i quit my big boy job at the end of 2019 , right before xmas .. i was starting to feel the ramifications of Unmedicated Depression and work only made it worse , but i thot id take a break and go back to the workforce in a few months .. obviously the pandemic changed that
i tried working again towards the end of 2020 , it was a work from home job that .. to be honest .. it brought me to the edge LMFAO like literally . if u know what i mean . lots of stuff happened back then , even my mom got involved .. and then i said .. alright .. im not ready for this type of thing yet , ill just take it easy . im very fortunate in that my mom really Wants me here , at home , so i dont feel any pressure to move out (although i did move out for a year when i turned 18 , but that was more dramatic than normal i thinkfdgkjfd) .. im supported by her in many ways , though i do tend to pay for certain bills and household stuff when i have the money !!
most of my work since 2021 has been art commissions .. they dont happen frequently, as i am also quite slow , and maybe not The Best at it .. but its something that gives me way less stress than a Real Job TM would ..
thru the years i kept thinking to myself , ah , i really need to get normal soon , i cant keep going on like this . people work through worse things .. and hten .. things would happen in my life , id lose a loved one and all i wud think about is how lucky i was to not have a job so that i didnt need to Present to work while grieving .. this happened for two years in a row .. i think it really skewed my view of .. what i can do in the workforce , the type of stress i can take .. i think if i lived in a better country , id prolly be on disability .. but where i live its practically useless to do so , the money they give u is not worth the sheer effort it takes to go thru all that bureucracy .
anyway so thats where i am , thats my situation .. i think a lot of people would think of me as weak , or lazy , but i hope u guys know that i have tried many times before , and i will continue to try as soon as i get stronger .. im finally taking some steps to become someone who can withstand hardship , physically and metnally, but the process is slow and i sometimes fall back on old habits .. its very slow .. but it does exist and that brings me some joy :-)
so if u are in a situation like mine , where work feels impossible , where normal life feels alien and uncomfortable , my advice is to take things slowly , to move at ur own pace in whatever way u can , if the circumstances allow it , take breaks and allow urself time .. its all u have after all
kisses u .. this turned very emotional sorry . didnt mean 2 sound gay ont he timeline
Mofu my soul just left my body when I woke up to the post for the chapter 5 omg every waking and sleeping second I’m thinking about count mnh0 and steward jsng and now also cousin hynjn . ily sm thankfully their was no issue brain wise, I hope you feel happy and healthy very soon 💞💗
waking up to mm update is the best thing ever we love u boddarz
ohhhmy God thank you thankyouthankyouthankyou chap4
HELL YEAH IM SFILL HERE AND IM STILL PACIN SROUND AND GALLOPING ACCROSS THE MEADOWS WAITING FOR YOUR VALIANT RETURN! Im still just as hyped as the first time i read MM nothing can stop me. If u ever feel alone? You are not. Beacause there is me. The overly excited anon . running laps and laps and laps and laps and la
hello miss mr mofu .. or any thing else u prefer to be called i want u to know i care u ok /? i lov seeing u on my tl and even tho i am Shy to interact u bring me many joys thru my day . i hopeu feel better soon that illness has no business making U feel bad. i believe u can bounce back..wit the power of friendship and yaoi
love the ambiguous greeting we should do this more often . , u shudnt be shy . .. ... Please .. . tlak to me i have nothing else going on . . . thank u so muhc for the well wishes .. to think u thought of me . . that i crossed ur mind and u took time out of ur day 2 send me this nice message .. u are so full of love thank u anon i hope ur day is filled with happiness
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