no fuck def even the idea of it is crazy like jsc just… thinks wb is too pure and ykw this just gave me a thought that once again rounds back to complicated emotions big heart bigger dick jsc who is at the crossroads of the ‘enormity of my desire disgusts me’ / ‘love for you is larger than the usual romantic love. its a religion its terrifying. no one will ever want to sleep with you.’ And jsc having internalised this concept to the degree where he thinks his desire is the problem and tho he notices wb’s interest in him, object permanence abandonment issue does stop him. and maybe it’s a real condition #bpd sc au for a second but like just the idea of jsc getting knee deep into what he feels for wb and he knows wb doesnt reciprocate it to this degree yet but when they finally fall into bed together this becomes his guilty pleasure sort of kink… wb is too pure, too untainted and so sc will take his hands and he will put them thru wb. if he gets to once he has to again and again there just is no way out for him… what am i even doing damn heres the anatomy of a kink i guess