ouegh i miss them too 🥺🥺 i feel like i can't put my thoughts into words about them but. meteor impact quite honestly ruined my life (physically owns the stage play bc of them and has seen it at least four times). idk there's something about chiakana where they have seen each other at their most vulnerable and kind of keep that part of each other safe if that makes sense. ryuseitai retconning physically pains me so i haven't read any of the new rst stories for like. a long time (same goes w the rest of the units lmao the past like year and a half of stories i either know vague things or absolutely nothing about and maybe i'm saving myself that way) so i can't say anything about their current dynamic but idk i think about them post kanata's execution often. or that story where kanata pretty much kidnaps chiaki (ie drags chiaki in while he's visiting and sick) and takes care of him like there's so much in that one like,,, oeugh pretty sure there's a line in that one abt kanata's expression when he's in his house speaking to the people there and that line has been in my head for two years
but yeah post execution kanata is so interesting to me like idk there's something so,,, gestures with hands about him learning to be human bc what does that even mean, what does it mean to be human in the first place. i'm kinda obsessed w that one line chiaki has about spending a while teaching kanata how public transport works (also another rst retcon bc he says it was during summer but kanata's execution is i'm pretty sure is in september or fall at least but don't get me started on any of that) like just seeing them do things that seem so mundane but kanata has no real knowledge of is such a concept and i want to see it so bad
meteor lights is on the brain and you guys should all watch it (giggles twirls hair who wants to watch it with me <33) bc the way their relationship is played in it is so good (the entire thing is so good, madara's actor makes me feel like i'm getting my heart ripped out nearly every time he's on stage i love him, beach scene where kanata talks directly to him while chiaki speaks only to the drone to ryusei no kagaribi where madara looks pained the entire time immediately followed by his meteor impact bloomed pose makes me so fucking ill) but . back to chiakana. idk there's something a little silly and a little sweet abt kanata being like aw look at this sopping wet boyfailure <33 when chiaki lets a little bit of his pathetic side out only to be so blunt abt it lmao. i probably have more to say but i've been trying to put thoughts abt their actual dynamic into words the entire time i've been writing this and it's not happening. just know they exist in my head, they were my first enstars ship and i love them so much. u guys should make me dig my chiakanas out of the vault

hi!! 🥺 today has actually gone pretty well (even tho i v much did not want to go to work bc i had a very nice three day weekend 😔) tbh i haven't listened to most of the songs lmao so favorites i'll call the ones that stick in my head a lot so secret night, last dimension (specifically the symphonic version), and i was going to add zone of overlap bc that was stuck in my head so bad when i first started listening to some of the music outside of the anime but to make it fair bc i already listed two trigger songs, then i'd say imperial chain does something to my brain sometimes and insomnia slaps (i could probably keep listing zool songs and i think u can see my favoritism lmao) (survivor is in my head rn if we also want to count that). and idk what they put in perfection gimmick but that song pops into my head all the time too fksks not sure if u mean favorite song or character but might as well mention characters too bc i pretty much listed off most of the groups (sowwy revale i have barely listened to ur discography 😔)
to start off strong with the most pathetic little sopping wet creature i've ever seen, i love haruka dearly and i want to put him in my pocket and take him around everywhere with me (i like to think this is not at all surprising) but yeah wtv that post is abt big wet eyes and pathetic personality captivating me,, yeah. i'm still in the gradually learning more abt the characters phase so i feel like there's not much reasoning aside from momo bc osmosis of oomf telling me abt him (and yuki), gaku but trying to explain that is idk my brain doesn't work, and i7 is a little hard for some reason but there's smth about sougo and i like sort of get what makes my brain go oeugh but trying to piece that one together is a little ,, idk too. iori is also such an interesting creature to me (🏳️‍🌈❗❓), hope he gets well soon fjdksk
i'd say sorry for the essay but. i most definitely could say more

that 5 cm height difference has not left me alone so . i'll be writing abt izumi teasing leo abt it bc he thinks leo is cute when he's all annoyed abt izumi growing 2 cm while he's stuck at 169 ksdlgh recital is certainly. something that exists in my google docs 😔😔 i did start rewriting chapter 2 bc i think it might help me get back into it or smth and i do want to work on it more but idk i don't have much motivation to touch it at all which is actually the worst bc i keep getting ideas for it (mostly later chapter things) but once i get a chance to sit down and look at the doc, all urges i have to actually work on it like completely disappear and it's the worst. but yes thank u anon mwah <33 the past few days have been so good actually