i’m so tired of pretending everything is fine so i’m dropping this shit i’m so done i’m so done. stop it i’m begging you. if i’m going down anyways i’m going to drag everyone down. i just came back, shared opinions, and post a poll how I don’t think Shidou, a fictional character deserve more innocent votes than Yuno (a character written with abortion one topic that impacts her character widely, and something feminism has been fighting for). you might think i’m victimizing myself here but i’ve been super uncomfortable because of stuff i have received, including retrospring anon messages i have received months ago obviously meant to hate. i am still affected and is trying to adjust and enjoy this media again because it is my main hyperfixation but just right after i decided i’m not leaving anymore, i got attacked once again by these people instead of blocking me. i’ve had panic attack that lasted hours, a panic attack that caused instense shaking to the point that i look like i’m having seizures and even if i try to distract myself, i’m still hyperventilating and cannot breath properly. i’m sorry but i can’t do this anymore i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry