ah, thank you! i had a lot of therapy when i was younger, so that's definitely a contributor. also as a person i get a lot of comfort out of being able to name and describe things; it's kind of a coping mechanism for me. i was a scientist for a few years, so making observations and then organizing them in my head is an instinctual skill at this point. i think it's helpful to me in some ways, but i also often think that having the ability to order or describe things is pretty useless when it comes to making intentional change or exerting control. we understand so little of the world or of ourselves! i can say why all i want after the fact, but is that useful knowledge or is it just a kind of delusion? (sorry, you can probably see where all takedown namjoon's general mental flailing comes from 🙃)
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