hi!!! as of right now, takedown is nowhere, i haven't even started on the next chapter 😭 i felt very conflicted and anxious about the most recent chapter when i finished it, and those feelings kind of plunged me into a period of writer's block where i barely wrote anything for a couple of months right after it. april was the first month where i was writing consistently again, and i've been a little scared to think about takedown again i think, so i wasn't even thinking about the next chapter, just focusing on other stuff. (i've been writing a lot of my namkook exchange fic which is due in september, working on unfastening with beebalm, and i've also made some good progress on the next chapter of how good it felt 🤗)

i don't love going for so long without touching it at all; takedown is such a constant for me that it honestly does make me nervous to go for a long time without working on it. but at the same time i think i just needed some distance from it, and i've gone for periods of months before without working on it and my interest and enthusiasm has always returned. it's just been a long time since i felt that way! this past year was pretty prolific for me as far as takedown goes -- i wrote 43,000 words of it in the last year, and as soon as i'd finished a chapter i started on a new one right away, which i hadn't been doing with it since like, 2020.

anyway!!!!!! all that is to say, i think maybe i got a little burned out and needed a break. but!!! the timing of this message is actually a really weird coincidence, because literally last night as i was trying to fall asleep, i had a takedown thought and had to pull out my phone to leave myself a note so i didn't forget it!! and that was the FIRST time that's happened in like 3 months! so i think that means my brain is ready to start thinking about takedown again and organizing the next chapter in my head. so hopefully there will be another chapter this summer! we'll see!