don't try to follow me, this'll be a vent/rant account. if you were hb'd/sb'd on my main, you can still shoot me an ask on here.

i'm attached to most of the characters who have been abused by mori in some way ...　yosano ,　because she reminds me of cassie .　dazai ,　chuuya ,　and elise for obvious reasons ...　and q because he reminds me of my friend kyu .　^_^

i think she thought i would be crushed last night ...　that makes me laugh !　why would i be devastated over the loss of a friend who made me so uncomfortable in the first place ...　so silly ?　i have better friends anyway .　i'm thankful for them all !　♡

my classes here are super short ...　i'm glad　!

i feel so free !　^_^

yay!!!!!!! spins you around

wtf

yes or no

cocky want boing boing !!

my joy and whimsy cannot be contained

　　　I had a major mood boost, compared to earlier this morning. I'm happy. Lunch was quiet and lonely, but I don't mind. I prefer to eat by myself anyways. I talked to my online friends and listened to music. No one to bother me or interrupt me. It was peaceful.

　　　ビターチョコデコレーション
　　　皆が望む理想に憧れて
　　　ビターチョコデコレーション
　　　個性や情は全部焼き払い

　　　ビターチョコデコレーション
　　　欲やエゴは殺して土に埋め
　　　ビターチョコデコレーション
　　　僕は大人にやっとなったよママ

　　　Going off of this, specifically the interests part, a lot of people are also more open to "morbid" or "odd" interests. I found a friend in a discord server who is interested in suicide as well! It was a lovely feeling.

　　　I'm starting to think online friends are better than friends in real life. I've never really had a "bad" online friend, per se. Some of us grew apart, yes, but others I'm still friends with! Aya and I have our one year friend anniversary sometime in November. I don't remember when I became friends with Cassie. That makes me sad.
　　　It's also easier to make friends online, at least for me. I can find people with similar interests much more quickly. It's nice.

　　　You know, today hasn't been my day. I woke up crying, talked to my parents crying, rode to school crying, cried in the hallway... But, the more I think about my beloved, the less horrible I feel. Even just thinking of how loving he is to me improves my mood significantly.. I love hym very much.

　　　I should work on my lovemail rentry. It would be nice to express my gratitude to all of my partner and friends. I love them all more than I can express.