tbh, i totally understand what you're saying ! although as someone who is more attracted to someone's physics i dont really care how they really are. this might sound toxic and its not surprising bcs all of the relationships ive been in were unhealthy but for example i have my ult bias in kpop (i take this as an example bcs this is the only parasocial relationship of mine i can think of) that ive loved since we were 9 maybe ? i dont remember but for some reasons its not only physics because in my mind i know what hes like off camera iykwim ? this is hard to put into words but yeah !! it cannot be healthy