sorry for the long answer you're about to get, i've been thinking on this for a while.

this fandom in general can be... a lot. when i got into twst it was after an incredibly life altering traumatic event for me, and i clung to it and found a lot of comfort in it. i do still love twst. i think the characters are great, and i met some of my best friends in the world through it. there are some amazing people in this fandom that i am so happy and lucky to call my friends, or even just acquaintances. but it's gotten just... toxic, i guess? for me, at least. of course not everyone is going to have the same experience as me, and if you haven't, that's great. but i did. like, god, i had to close retrospring for a couple of months because i was getting so many awful, disgusting, triggering messages. i get more awful shit sent here than things sent in good faith. a lot of false things with some pretty serious accusations have been said about me, and that in and of itself is super triggering. sometimes i feel like i'm treated like this evil untouchable celebrity that people just want to take down, which is whack because i'm literally just a dude vibing on the internet. it's hard to find the same joy in interacting with the fanbase as i did before, because as much as i want to be nice and on here all the time, it's just bad for me. it's really. really bad for me.

i also can't play the game anymore, because in moving phones i lost access to my account. like, it's gone. it's gone gone and it ain't ever comin back. i'm still learning to cope with that. also my prosekai account is gone, and that's an entirely different mourning process.

i think i'll always be into twst. i'm definitely still going to be drawing fanart and tweeting about it here and there. i still have major fan projects i've been chipping away at for months. but i don't know if i'll ever be as here as i was back in, say, last june. i definitely can't livetweet events now that i don't have my account, and that's a bummer.

sorry this is so long. this seems so dramatic imo, i just wanted to give a more in depth explanation than a simple "yea but nah". lol