Know specifically? No. I did not know specifically. However, I suspected that once I kicked her that she would do that. She has a knack for it. She seems to garner enjoyment from it; something about feeling that she is owed something from the world and therefore she is a crappy person because of it. Whats to be done about it? Maybe she should have been treated better by her mommy or her daddy but I am neither, neither can I go in the past and ask them to do so. Daddy issues that one seems to have. All she ever seems to do is shit talk people; though she has been useful. I used her to get a lot of people I didn't like a lot of stress. I would just pour a little bits of information into her DMs and off it would go into the world en mass. You won't believe the dedication of someone hateful, the lengths that they will go to, to honestly hurt ..anybody. unfortunately for her, she cannot hurt me. Words are simply letters on the internet, or in books, or anywhere really that written word is to be found and the funny thing about words are that you can choose to not read them. I let her run amuck in my server a bit; mostly because it kept it lively. A bit of chaos keeps things interesting. Unfortunately, she has a bit of a power complex and forgot who the server really belonged to. Seems to have forgotten that it isn't her personal safe space. Seems to have forgotten that she was used. Does that make me mean? Certainly. But look at her and tell me she doesn't deserve it. A girl who does nothing but talk horrid things about others and take pictures of her ass; which by the way mine is nicer, I'll post it on Twitter today to prove. In any case, she can do as she likes, that includes joining the server again. Like I said it's a no-ban server. A kick is not a ban. Whether she decides to or not however, meh. I've got things more important to care about. Anyway, working on a mod. Perhaps I'll make it a nod to her; gotta ask sel if naming something whore makes it NSFW.

There isn't, papa.
I liked opiates, you know I've despite my back issue stopped using them completely, papa.

Moreover, I'll be crass, my father died when I was 11, don't bring him into these petty squabble nonsensicalities you might have with me, if you would be so kind. My cat, my mother, my family, my address, now even my dewd father? Is there no end to where you people go in terms of how low you can go? It's saddens me to see people like this still exist. It's saddens me to see people who just enjoy bringing sadness to others; though you didn't bring me sadness, not at all. Too late- sadness would have brought perhaps 11-year-old me, to tears even, but, I've been over his death for many many years. I just think it's rather scummy. It's like asking prayer about her mother who has also passed away. Though I supposed the recency of hers and the length of mine makes it okay to jape about my father's death, to bring him in to silly jokes that make no rhyme nor reason and bring no purpose to anything. Sad. Quite sad indeed. I do hope you become less... This. I have been this before, and it's just miserable. Misery isn't something that you wear with kindness as a sidekick, you're just a jerk when you're miserable because you want your misery to just end and you're envious of those who aren't. I pity you. I do hope you do get better though. As I did. Best of luck, papa.

it doesn't matter if ppl prepare, it happens regardless, preparation will not undo the damage and it will not make anything better. I told so that people wonder every day ""is this the day?" so that the people who made me want to kill myself on Christmas last year wonder if it'll happen now... tomorrow? in a week?

whos to know
whos to say
wonder
wonder

let it drive you mad

let it break you as you almost broke me, as you're nothing but a haggle of monsters pretending to be good people under the guise of social justice

justice

what a wonderful thing

it comes, it comes and it comes with a wrath you cannot even fathom

wonder

wonder

fear