gorgeous girl, you deserve all the good things in life. you deserve to be loved, you deserve to heal, you deserve to be supported in all ways possible. i hope you'll heal, even if it's not easy. i hope you're strong enough to stand still even if everything doesn't work out the way it does, the way you envisioned it. one day you'll take a look back and realize how much of a strong person you are. be happy and keep blooming like your name, amaryllis.