after oct 7th happened last yr she went on a long hiatus (or several) and came back like nothing happened. it was my wishful thinking that maybe she'd change or something and be a voice but obviously that never happened. its been 13 months so i think its... long enough. combine that with me being scared of backlash against myself + looking for proof for hours in group chats only to find that the group chats were broken either way and i couldnt scroll up past a certain point. i've stopped caring about proof, because i have myself, my own eyes, my experience with her, keep in mind i was moots with her for years. i wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt. but sometimes people hide their true self. they pretend to be progressive. for example: you could be good on lgbt issues, but not on genocide issues, which is very much her case. i also dont like the attention, even making that thread made me nervous. but even with my anxiety i do have my principles, and a spine. so i said what i said. not taking it back.