Real talk, it’s not that I am not aware that I’ve been detaching myself when it comes to romantic relationships. For me, it’s hard to regulate my feelings.

I, much of the time, long for an intimate and affectionate relationship just like what most people do. Yet upon noticing people put an interest in me, my natural reaction is to evade their interest and keep my distance so it’ll be easier for them to let go. I feel anxious just by the thought that later I might hurt the other party or be the one left renounced.

Right now, I am nothing but a ball of confusion and I don't think anyone deserves such uncertainty. Starting a relationship is not a wise move to take at this point. Oh, and I know this is something that should be fixed, I am still learning how to change it.

I am sorry if in any way possible I did hurt your feeling or drew an impression of someone out of reach. I am honored to know my existence alone is enough to make you excited about your day. I would love to hear about it by the way! May all the odds let us cross our path, hopefully in a better version of myself. Even if we didn't, I hope you will find someone great as you deserve. 🖤