hi (again). i definitely was not expecting a response but this was a pleasant surprise on my part. so hey, how is it going now? this is extremely late but i’m extremely sorry to hear about your loss. i hope things have been better for you since, at least even for the slightest bit.
i’ve been well. you probably won’t be surprised but i’ve been nosy and check your spotify at times as well. i’ve recently made a mistake while editing my homescreen and accidentally found out that your locket is still active. it’s nice to see that you’re living well. ironically enough, i started august with a similar situation of your june, the passing of my old friend. unfortunately, i couldn’t even attend the funeral but it was probably better for me to skip it. so i guess i haven’t really been happy these days. but apart from that, i’m, well, still unsure? i’ve stopped believing in happiness and i no longer define my days with numbers but i do hope that if i were to put it in a numerical form, it wouldn’t be a streak of low numbers anymore. i wish the same thing goes for you too. i don’t live in that same apartment anymore. in fact, i moved to a different country on a rather impulse decision. winter is way too chilly and school is quite challenging here but weirdly enough it feels really assuring to be here. there is something so serene about being in an unknown place where no one knows you. while i no longer rate my days on the scale from 1-10, don’t worry. other than the sudden location change, everything remains the same.
i have a confession to make. i actually saw your response a while back. sorry it took me so long to get back to you. i figured it’s better if i don’t turn this (sending long ass letters) into a habit or else we’ll both have fingers that are too muscular (haha ketawa dong). but i guess i’ve always been too greedy for my own good, hence, a whole essay on your retrospring. it’s a bit unfair, huh? for me to suddenly disappear and be able to freely reach out to you while you can’t. i’m sorry for that. have you been eating and sleeping well? what have you been doing to keep yourself busy these days? have you gotten slightly happier? if you’re wondering, i have a whole set of questions i’m wondering about for you too but this message would get too long if i were to ask everything. i do want to chat about nothing and everything like we used to but i’m not sure how to do that either. it is still kind of a bummer that you were my best friend (still is dw but only if it’s not one sided) and i can’t talk to you anymore. nonetheless, if you want to talk, let me know. and if you don’t, let me know too. i miss you a whole lot. i hope you know i’m always rooting for you too. until then, take care.