aahh thank you anon youre so sweet! i shall endeavour to be more active for the rest of the year also 🫡 re: biases, this is such an interesting question! and also a difficult one to answer! i think? my love for a someone who i imprint on and fall deeply in love with never really "dims". it changes shapes and forms over time, but never quite dissipates. for people who i've loved for a long long time (for example yoongi, who's been an ult bias for almost 10 years now... holy fucking shit) theyre like an old friend, someone who feels like a constant, who feels like coming home after a long day, who feels like my soul on a plate. mingyu is also deeply special, this year i'll complete 7 years of caratism so god, i've had him for a pretty long time too. with him, its constant cute aggression. but alongside that, on a personal level, hes someone i respect and adore so much, like someone who's personality and incadescent goodness and kindness i aspire to. so its a slightly different feeling than yoongi - its more like, a sense of wanting to hold him close to my chest and squish him because hes just so lovely and sweet. but both yoongi and mingyu bring me comfort in equal amounts, even if in different ways - its really something hard to quantify. then you have my more recent guys, like seungmin or taerae, people i've known relatively less longer (i completed 1 year of skz stanning this january and zb1 too i've had for roughly a year), and that affection looks very different too. its a little silly, how the reason i ended up liking both seungmin and taerae so much is because of how unique they are as singers, how dedicated they are to their respective craft. with taerae, it often feels like the affection you have for your little brother, someone who is just goofy but you would go to war for them. seungmin on the other hand is a complex person and hence evokes very complex reactions for me which is a whole other essay for another day. but the bottomline is, there is also a lot of adoration there, but i adore them in a "hi, i think you're so neat, i want to study you in a lab to audit all your spare parts but at the same time i think i see you in these fundamental ways and i find you so so special, please let me keep you" .
so yeah. idk if ANY of this made sense god im so sorry for rambling. but like the tl;dr is i have too much love in my heart to give it to just one person in one singular way. the very act of creating and expressing art is so categorically human and i will always treasure idols who are dedicated to creating and expressing that art in the most hauntingly human ways. also. i am cursed to gravitate to the government mandated puppyboys and catboys forever. sorry for being like this 😭