genuinely though this entire rs situation right now isnt good for you, its easy for anons to impersonate eachother too and you have a lot of people talking to you at once. even if we disagree on a term you are a good person with good intentions and you need to look after yourself. i recommend at least turning off anonymous asks, people are sending you horrible things and youre mistaking it for others. you dont deserve to have people anonymously saying disgusting things about you, please look after yourself