hi not lou.
funny id probably say the cupcake incident. like that's such a basic answer but oh my god why did he have so much to say about those cupcakes. and the music??? i was crying laughing the first time i heard that song what IS THAT. also one of the first thing he insults about the cupcake is the gaudy color?? mf your hair is the SAME COLOR? poor touya just wants to make something nice for his siblings and ends up putting his senior through the nine circles of hell. ten years of studying theater could not prepare kamishiro rui for those cupcakes.

runner ups:
- "maybe we can test if we can pick up miyake by the scruff of his neck later" "WHAT"
- also pandemonium. wxs helping this guy pack for his trip because the words "pack lightly" do not exist in kamishiro rui's lexicon and he believes the world will end if he doesn't bring three spanners
- the teacup ride in twiparade

for the second...hard deliberation happening in my head. well the two rui moments that have actually made me feel sick to my stomach reading are ch6 of curtain call and his amidst a dream side story p1 so its gotta be one of those. i have plenty of others that make me feel insane but those are like. This is painful to read. honestly both are also probably due in part to the way i read them lmao. curtain call i was reading before the event came out officially however late at night on sekai.best and seeing that "until now, we.......we" with zero context of his face or whatever startled the shit out of me, which sounds silly but hey thats just how my brain is. same with the "i know that, but....why is there this pain in my chest?". reading method aside, the whole chapter is an arrow through the heart. the long walk him, nene's words to him, the solemn attittude in sekai, and when you finally reach that "i still want to do shows with them" you feel like your heart is shattering into a million pieces. hrgh.

for amidst a dream i couldnt get a transcript so i found an upload of the card story and was holding my phone up trying to grab individual lines to shove in a translator lmao. and i remember i was like "oh what nice music in sekai. i like this guitar--emotions can be so--what the fuck did he just say?" and then i was frantically trying to get the rest because i felt like my brain was being flipped upside down as rui was spilling his feelings to meiko and luka. the whole build-up from curtain call to happy end with his want to stay together makes me feel like a sick animal. yeah sure, say you wish you wish you didn't have to feel your emotions because theyre so painful and confusing right now. ill be normal about it, i promise. also lukas words to him at the end are so sweet ugh.

oh my god i talked for way too long. sorry for such a long winded response. rui brings out the yapper in me oops.