i am embarrasingly gay for 🌶️, that's what it boils down to lol. plus i wanted to make 🌶️ merch for myself and show my support for her anyhow i could. also i figured it'd be a good way to learn how to draw real people, especially given that i wouldn't want to mess up if it was me trying to do the person i like the most! my first piece looks so embarrasing but i'm happy with how far i've come, and i'm confident i'll improve even more!